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PregMANcy: A Dad, a Little Dude, and a Due Date
By Christian Piatt
My First Trimester
two fateful words
Mattias: Daddy, you suck.
Amy: Mattias, tell your daddy you're sorry.
Mattias: OK. Daddy, I'm sorry you suck.
—Mattias, 3 years, 3 months
These two words are what started the baby ball rolling in the Piatt household back in January. After months of counseling, discernment, weepy nights, and sleepless mornings, I submitted, succumbed, and caved in like the roof of a Geo convertible.
I know "screw it" is an ironic choice of words, considering the circumstances. I also think it's sadistically ironic that we men are biologically tuned to love sex so much, yet we're usually the ones who freak out the most about the by-product. I'm a typical male, visually aroused by anything vaguely resembling a boob or a booty. Also, working from home and sharing responsibility with my wife for the daily development of our four-year-old son, Mattias, makes me somewhat abnormal. And it's this shared responsibility, I think, that makes having another kid such a big deal for me.
"I think you take it more seriously than some dads," said a shrink friend of mine who counseled me through some of my initial anxiety when my wife and I first started talking about having more children several months ago. "You know that half of the responsibility of another baby will fall on you, whereas some guys are happy to have more children since they aren't really around that much anyway."
Doc, as I call him, has been both a friend and a physician—and, in many ways, a surrogate father to me—when I've needed him the most. A father of three boys himself, he knows a thing or two about family, and if he's as emotionally and physically available to the rest of his former clients as he is to me, his extended family tree looks like a freaking Chia Pet.
The thing is, even though I love Doc as much as I do anyone else on the planet, he can be kind of a schmuck too. On the one hand, he'll offer up these insightful little gems like this that help validate why I'm so freaked out about expanding our family, and then he'll smile and tell me to stop being such a pansy and just man up.
My wife, Amy, who is nearing her thirty- fourth birthday, is a minister by profession. She's not exactly your typical minister, which should be pretty self-evident, given that she's a woman. We started a church together eight years ago in southern Colorado right after she finished seminary in Texas, just as Mattias turned six months old. We've joked ever since that raising a toddler and starting a church is a whole lot like having twins, but I guess God didn't see that as enough of a challenge for us.
I have my own life outside of the church, which is good since I have yet to receive a paycheck from the church. I help out with everything from music and leadership to outreach, toilet unclogging, landscaping, and whatever else is left unattended to at the end of the day. In some ways I like being a volunteer because it allows me to say "no" more often than if I was paid, though I rarely say "no." It's just nice to know I could if I wanted to. I actually make a living as a writer, which explains how it is that I can at least pretend to have a career, volunteer fifteen or so hours a week at church, and still pitch in my 50 percent toward parenting.