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Christopher HitchensIn "Aubade," Philip Larkin, whom the late Christopher Hitchens named as his favorite poet, wrote in the voice of a non-believing sensualist facing death and the extinction of the senses:

This is a special way of being afraid
No trick dispels. Religion used to try,
That vast, moth-eaten musical brocade
Created to pretend we never die,
And specious stuff that says No rational being
Can fear a thing it will not feel, not seeing
That this is what we fear—no sight, no sound,
No touch or taste or smell, nothing to think with,
Nothing to love or link with,
The anasthetic from which none come round

On December 15th, after an 18-month struggle with esophageal cancer, Hitchens himself went under that anesthetic. Since June of 2010, when he first announced his diagnosis, believers of all faiths have been hoping, and of course praying, that the author of God is Not Great would see their particular brand of the light. He didn't. Hitchens died, as people used to say, unrepentant, or as Larkin would say, facing Nothing. Though a believer myself, I can't help admiring Hitchens for being consistent to the end. Given his intellect and his daring, what kept him out of all the folds can't be anything so commonplace as stubbornness or complacency; it must have been genuine courage.

"One thing that grave illness does," wrote Hitchens, "is to make you examine familiar principles and seemingly reliable sayings." The saying Hitchens discarded quickest was one he might have used to comfort or flatter himself, namely, "Whatever does not kill me, makes me stronger." While conceding that emerging intact from a car wreck or an emotional crisis sometimes left him with "a fatuous sense of toughness," Hitchens recognized painful illness as a permanent game-changer:


[If non-lethal pain were a fortifying agent], then each attack, each stroke, each vile hiccup, each slime assault, would collectively build one up and strengthen resistance. And this is plainly absurd. So we are left with something quite unusual in the annals of unsentimental approaches to extinction: not the wish to die with dignity but the desire to have died.

Among the painfully afflicted, this desire to have died must be a universal. Catholics no less faithful than Therese of Lisieux and William F. Buckley copped to it openly. But Hitchens did no more to hasten his own death than either of them. In fact, not altogether unlike the Little Flower of Jesus—or, for that matter, Blessed John Paul the Great—Hitchens transformed his corporeal breakdown into a bully pulpit. Though never without some regard for his looks—he once wrote of reaching the age when "only women want to go to bed with me"—he appeared in public hairless, pain distorting his features. He shared the fright he felt when his voice "suddenly rose to a childish (or perhaps piglet-like) piping squeak."