I hope you still remember me. I know it’s been awhile. It seems that sometimes, okay most of the time, I think that I can do this life thing on my own and forget that I have you and those you send to assist me on this life journey to shoulder the burdens. And because of my ego and pride I have been tired, discouraged, and disappointed. I feel like everyone has let me down, and yet the reality of the situation is that if I don’t ask for help then I don’t receive any help. Reaching out is hard, but I know that I have been taught to Ask, Believe, Expect and Receive so if I forget the first part of that how will I ever receive the end result? I won’t.
I get it now, Universe.
I grew up being taught to accept what you receive with gratitude and to not ask for anything bigger and/or better, and yet you have taught me that being abundant in all areas of my life has nothing to do with being snooty, but instead honoring and taking pride in who I am. I am worthy.
I have also been comparing myself to others, asking why them and why not me. What an injustice I have done to the core of who I am. Because of that, I have disallowed my creative self to shine for fear of rejection. I have allowed other’s successes (in all different areas of my life) to shadow my own successes and disallowed myself to celebrate who I am.
We are each like a tree and we have to nourish the trunk of the tree for the limbs to grow healthy. Sometimes the limbs of the tree need to be cut off in order for new growth to happen. These limbs could be past loves, friendships that only lasted a season, a job opportunity that didn’t work out, a current love that is unhealthy, issues with family, financial problems and the list continues. I haven’t taken the time to cut the limbs for fear of what will happen. But I know that by trimming those limbs, the trunk of that tree, my very soul, strengthens and the limbs can grow stronger and go further and bloom more beautiful.
Sound familiar? We all get discouraged and sad, but it doesn’t have to be that way. I post encouraging posts on my Facebook and many times the responses are ‘easier said than done’. Yes, nobody said life was easy, but it can be easier and the more that you ask for assistance from those around you and those on the Other Side, but you have to take the first step.
I have learned 7 valuable lessons through my own dark times:
- When in doubt, just take the next small step and ASK.
- It is okay to be angry, sad, mad, etc. Feeling/Expressing/Voicing the emotions help to move me forward.
- It is up to me to be happy and nobody else to make that happen.
- However good or bad a situation is, it will change. Nothing remains constant.
- Changing my mind-frame helps to change my life.
- Miracles happen every day.
- Envy is a waste of time and energy.
Maybe it is time for you to write your letter, and maybe even use this one as a template.
I get it now. I hope you do too.