Goddess Murder, 16: The Preaching of Mary

XVIII. From the Acts of Mary[An excerpt from The Acts of Mary as translated byC.T. Edwards,  A. Healey,  L. Moresco, and S. Weiss]Chapter V. On one day a man in the crowd called out to me, “What about divorce? Did your Mashiach allow divorce?”I replied, “Why do you ask about divorce? Why do you not ask about marriage? Great is the mystery of marriage. Without marriage, the world would not exist. Do you not know that the first commandment our God gave to us was to be fertile and mu … [Read more...]

Goddess Murder, 12: Awakening

XIV. Awakening [From The Gospel According to Mary, as translated by C.T. Edwards, A. Healy, L. Moresco, and S. Wise]As I stood praying, I heard a voice say, “Mary.” I looked up and saw an angel, blazing with light. But then I recognized him. I cried out “Rabbouni!” and fainted at his feet.He reached down with his right hand and raised me up, saying, “Do not be afraid, my beloved. I have awakened from among those who sleep. I know who I am, and I am everyone.”“But how . . .” I began. … [Read more...]

Goddess Murder, 11: Aphrodiphobia

XIII. The Work Continues, 3 Andy spoke up. “What you’re saying, Alan, is that even the most fundamental Christian beliefs have been corrupted by Aphrodiphobia.”Everyone looked at her in surprise. I hesitated, then said, “I’m sorry, Andrea. The what?”“Aphrodiphobia. It’s a term I coined. Of course you haven’t heard it.”“Fear of Aphrodite?” Les asked cautiously.“No, fear of sex,” Andy replied. “Are you all familiar with the work of Wilhelm Reich?”Megan looked appraisingly aroun … [Read more...]

Goddess Murder, 10: Dinner

XII. Dinner [From The Gospel According to Mary, as translated by C.T. Edwards, A. Healy, L. Moresco, and S. Wise]One evening we were invited to dinner by Salome, who had known Joshua for many years, but had not seen him since his baptism by John. During the dinner, she turned to him and said, “Sir, who are you now? You have climbed into my bed and eaten from my table, but now you act as if you are someone important.”Joshua replied, “I am still the one who loves you. Now I am undivided, f … [Read more...]

On Not Buying into Ancient Propaganda

When I was working on Gnostic and New Testament Studies and stuff like that at the GTU in the 1970s, there was one especially important book I could not get hold of: the Panarion (“Medicine Chest for Heresies”) by Epiphanius (d. A.D. 403).  More precisely, I could not find a translation of it. The Greek text I could find, in Professor Migne’s collection of all the writings by the Church Fathers, in Greek and in Latin, from many centuries. Not a vast number of libraries own the complete set of abo … [Read more...]

On Gnosticism, the Book of Shadows, and Sex

I received a few days ago my monthly statistical report from Patheos on how many hits I received last month, total, per day, per blog, etc. My total has been running just under 5,000. If I get up to 12,500, I start getting paid (hint, hint). It was interesting to see that the greatest number of hits were on two blogs: “On Jesus as a Gnostic” and “Some New Pages for the Book of Shadows.” I suppose I might garner some more hits if I expand upon those particular topics. I also see I’ve written somew … [Read more...]

On the Necessity of Awakening

The Castle Frankenstein poem I posted as a blog records an experience that set me on a Gnostic path. It think it must be significant that I recovered my memory of it during a strange, dark prelude—maybe calling it “existential despair”is not too inaccurate—to my 1963 Awakening experience, of which I have not yet posted a full description, although my long History poem was one attempt to describe it.My experience in 1954 had been an Awakening also. Afterward I knew many things; in that sense I … [Read more...]

The Man Who Falls in Love with Goddesses

He never wants to fall in love; it's justThat every once in a while She walksInto his life, grows wings, burstsInto flame, and then he knowsIt's Her, and he must loveAs long as She decides to stay,Whether a year, or just today. Sometimes she doesn't even know,And there is no way to tell her; soHe works, and waits for the pain to end,Knowing She'll be back again.But when she hears and can assent —Yes she said Yes I will Yes! —Flesh wit … [Read more...]

On the Nature of the Gods

[These are thoughts based on my own Awakening experiences and on Alan Watts’ explication of  The Cloud of Unknowing. These are not “Gospel truth,” but instead are insights from what I myself have experienced, leaving out all the footnotes, qualifications, and conditionals, for the sake of clarity. I’ll be happy to discuss details and fine tuning later. By the way, I think it relevant that the Greek anastasis means both “resurrection” and “Awakening,” and that the Hebrew death means both “knowledg … [Read more...]

“History” — Part II

[For an overview of this poem and its complete title, please see the previous blog.]Second Theme 7. Sunlight When the whirled is all inhuman Flower, what can I say To the angel flaming Flower-spectrumed in Eden? Shall I ask this angel Who's got my mind in hock, Who burns my eyeballs green, Who strips the gears of my soul Naked, for wisdom? No, It's the always instant Of knowing nakedness That makes us men. When self Begins to speak again, the leaf Will mean again, and … [Read more...]


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