Prayer of Rededication

An acquaintance of mine and Feri initiate, who goes by the internet nom de plume Happydog Potatohead, wrote this beautiful prayer recently. I was struck to the quick when I read it. Not only do I revere Kali, but Happydog speaks of the fire, the burning, the boundaries - these things which I've been feeling, pushing against, embracing. This prayer expresses my heart more accurately and eloquently than I could myself. Enjoy. My Patroness, my Maitresse de ma Tete, is Kali.Ghosts … [Read more...]

Fire

I'm done with all of my summer traveling. I'm recovering physically (had a stomach bug to contend with), emotionally (relationships to heal), and mentally (oh wow, look at that list of things to attend to). It's been hot here too, and we don't have air conditioning. As I wind down and get centered again, the image that keeps coming to me is the Tower.I feel like I'm on fire. Everything is in flames. Do you feel it, too? It's more than just the incredible heatwave that the US has been … [Read more...]

Crashing, and hard

I have had a long summer and I'm feeling frayed.  I'm back from my last trip and while it was good, I've got the shakes and I'm extra super double plus sensitive. I'm coming down from constantly being on the go or being in between trips, holding space for many others, and keeping it together for just one more day/week/trip. I'm on the verge of a melt down, I think. It's been a long time coming. I feel physically exhausted and bloated and sore. I'm mentally overwhelmed with the long list of … [Read more...]

Harvest

Today is Lughnasadh, a Celtic cross-quarter holiday celebrating the first fruits of what has been sown and preparing for the harvest to come. I don't typically observe it, as I'm not much in tune with farm cycles. I notice that the selection at the farmer's market is larger: more vegetables, the first pig from my favorite local farm was just slaughtered. But I don't garden, nor do I live in a community centered on farm life, and so this holiday doesn't often register for me.However, a lot of … [Read more...]

An Apology

I have decided to remove my most recent post. While I was trying to convey my insights, I revealed too much about someone else. My sincerest apologies to my friend, whom I love.I haven't read all of Dante's Inferno, but I wonder if he created a circle of hell wherein people spend an eternity hunched over trying to pull their feet out of their mouths. If this exists, surely it is where I shall end up.I'll be gone from this blog for the next two weeks. My family is off to Colorado and … [Read more...]

Honor the Hearth

I've actually got a large post brewing in me about vulnerability and writing, but I've not had the space to cultivate it. The kids are intensely clingy - all the change of travel gets to them, even though I am so lucky that they travel well. We're back from Alaska but I'm preparing to leave again tomorrow for another trip for five days. This time alone, to California for a good friend's wedding. Of course, there is much to be done to prepare myself and my home for my departure.Which is a … [Read more...]

Dispatches from the Great White North

It’s been three years since I’ve been back to my hometown, Juneau, Alaska. My relationship to Juneau is complicated. I wrote about its formative qualities in the early part of my spiritual biography. I’ve never been away from Juneau for this long. It’s as if I have new eyes, and yet my senses remember: the way the water smells here, the feel of this beach, my legs know how to respond to the sea, my eyes know how to spot whales and eagles at 300 yards, my ears recognize the wake of the cruise ship … [Read more...]


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