Feri Freshman Hazing

I talk about the Magic a lot. I also call it the Current. You might call it Flow, God, the Divine, the still small voice within, serendipity - there are many names. Over the years, I have developed a sense of it, when I think I'm pulled by the Current, rather than by just my own whims. Usually what happens is an Idea comes into my or my husband's head, an idea previously unconsidered. Or an opportunity is presented to me and I am faced with having to choose Yes or No. Most of the time these … [Read more...]

Orange Alert

A post in which I am all kinds of vague and mangle a metaphor about traffic lights.Some readers might remember that I had a very, very challenging summer last year. This year is only slightly better. Last summer was far too busy and physically and emotionally overwhelming. This summer is far less physically taxing, but is equally emotionally challenging. I am feeling the emotional fall out - finally - from the heartbreak of the last twelve months. I am in the middle of excavating old wounds … [Read more...]

My Life is a Love Story

Falling in love is easy, if mysterious. It can be as simple as a chemistry-laden kiss.  It can be as complex as seeing a girl in an orange silk dress across a crowded room and knowing that my world is about to be turned inside-out. However, growing a love that is sustainable, with healthy boundaries and joy, is the work of a lifetime. My life is a love story, and the Red Goddess is my co-author.Love stories get a bad rap, and for good reason! Courtly tales of romance from the Middle Ages, c … [Read more...]

Identity

My birthday was this week. Birthdays and anniversaries are good times to reflect on one's life, so I've been thinking about the last year of my life, about the challenges and successes.The greatest challenges for me in the last 12 months have all been relational. Since this time last year I have had a miscarriage, lost and/or ended three important friendships, survived my son being 4, and entered into the deepest of emotional depths with my husband.The struggles with my husband have been … [Read more...]

In the Weeds

When the going gets tough, and it often does when one attempts 'advanced living,' what do you do?After my weekend in Canada, my week was a rough come down. My period started; I was physically exhausted and sleep deprived. My son turned five and we threw a larger than usual birthday party. My in-laws came to town. And my husband and I took some risks while at the same time excavating some intense relationship stuff. Did I reach out to friends? Did I fall back on the foundations of my … [Read more...]

Desire

Last night my husband and I went on a date. An actual dinner without children. We talked. We sipped drinks. Halfway through my sidecar I realized I was fired up, giddy about my subject matter, and rambling. That's how I feel when I'm full of desire. It's a stream of passion, enthusiasm, happiness, intensity, and a feeling of losing track of time.Desire is on my mind. Yes, the sexual kind, too. Spring will do that to a person. I embrace the lengthening days, the growing sunshine, the … [Read more...]

Resistance is futile

Expansion, contraction, expansion, contraction. It would be nice if this was an easy, regular pattern for change and growth in our lives. Dependable like breathing, predictable intervals, clear pay-offs. But it’s not. Sometimes some parts of us are expanding, while other parts are contracting. Sometimes our expansion hits limitations or boundaries and we have to contract a little. Sometimes we resist one kind of expansion in favor of another kind.I’ve had a season of dramatic expansion. Par … [Read more...]


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