“When you reach the end of your rope, you will find the hem of His garment.”
I have the above quote posted on a sticky note stuck to the outside of our sippy cup cabinet. There it hangs, day after day, as I reach past it to fill the billionth cup of juice or milk. There it hangs, reminding me that I am not superhuman, was never meant to be, and that His Power is a lot more sufficient than mine will ever be.
So why do I repeatedly try to take it all on my shoulders? Bear my children’s burdens and idiosyncrasies? Why am I constantly yearning for perfection and superwomanly attributes?
I’m tired of it.
Frankly, I’m just plain tired.
I am not superwoman. I do not have it all together. I make a lot of mistakes. My home is often cluttered. My kitchen sink is usually laden with dishes. My laundry is regularly piled high in the hallway. My kids sometimes have to hunt for underwear.
I lose it sometimes. My temper can get the best of me. My tears and fears can sometimes overwhelm me. I can easily feel defeated and discouraged.
I am often really tired at the end of the day. I’ve given it my “all” and yet my “all” is usually not enough.
I am not superwoman.
I am just a mom who’s trying to make it.
But the good news is that’s the way I’m supposed to be–broken, weathered, and in need of a Savior. I was created with a need for Him; to be defined by Him; to find worth in Him.
I do need to care for the needs of my family, but I don’t need to feel that perfection is the standard. I do need to embrace my role in the home, but I don’t need to compare myself to the accomplishments of others. I do need to keep my family orderly and organized, but I don’t need to beat myself up for mishaps in the schedule.
And I don’t need to don a red cape. Instead, I need to keep reaching for the hem of His garment.