Happy 1st Birthday in Heaven, Annie

 Dear friends, it seems like just yesterday that I was writing a post about Annie's birth, and now it has been one full year since we welcomed her into the world. We are celebrating Annie's birthday today by going to Mass, making a visit to the cemetery, and then having some fun together as a family. I have a feeling that we may be making a trip to our favorite cupcake spot, spending some time at our neighborhood pool, and just enjoying each other's company. I have … [Read more...]

The Gift of a Meal: It’s Not Just about the Food

This summer after the birth and death of our daughter, Annie Rose, many wonderful families brought us meals, cookies, muffins, cupcakes - you name it, we gratefully received it all! It was such a blessing to not have to think about dinner plans for the first couple of months following Annie's birth, and for our children to see in a tangible way how much the community cared for our family. I think that I've heard others say this before, but part of my grieving process very early on was that I had … [Read more...]

The Veil is So Thin

Good afternoon, dear readers! I apologize for being a bit absent over the past week - in these summer months, there isn't much down-time in our household! Between bringing kids to camp, playing countless games of Candy Land and Polly Pockets, and keeping a 2 year-old (who has taken a hiatus from napping this week, ahhh!) out of the endless supply of tasty treats that sits on our kitchen counter, I have not spent much time sitting at the computer.Let me begin by saying that our hearts are … [Read more...]

Annie’s Birth

Dear friends,First, thank you from the bottom of our hearts for your kind words and fervent prayers throughout the past months, and especially over the past couple of days. As we have said to many people, Tuesday was a beautiful day for our family, and now we have begun the hard work of healing.Anastasia Rose was born at 2:13 pm on June 12th, and weighed in at 3 lbs, 12 oz, measuring 16 inches long. She lived for a couple of minutes, just long enough for Ed to baptize her and for us to … [Read more...]

I Have a Date

On June 12th, 2012, I have a very important date. This is the day that I will get to meet my daughter, Annie Rose, and also the day that I will most likely be saying good-bye to her. I am joyful and anxious, excited and sad; the day will be bittersweet. It will be a big day for Annie - she will get to meet her daddy, her big brother and sisters, her Oma and Opa, and many wonderful friends who will make the trip to meet her. She will meet the team of medical and palliative care professionals who … [Read more...]

Mother’s Day Reflection

We spent the past two Mother's Day weekends in the hospital.  Once for me when I was diagnosed with Celiac Disease in 2010, and then last year Gus was hospitalized on and off during the month of May for unexplained vomiting and weight loss.  I've been dreading the month of May, just waiting for the next crisis to hit our family.  So let's just say I was overjoyed to be spending this mothers day with 5 healthy children.  Nobody was in pain, nobody was really sick, and nobody was crying!Mr. Red … [Read more...]