How I Deconverted, I Became A Christian Relativist

January 1997-December 1997: The first semester of my sophomore year I took predominantly theology and philosophy classes. Simultaneously I was taking both Church History I (covering church history from the time of the early church through the middle ages and stopping just before the Reformation) and a philosophy course on Augustine and Aquinas. I was [Read More...]

How I Deconverted: It Started With Humean Skepticism

I have written a number of personal posts about what I was like before I deconverted and then how things went for me when I deconverted. There is more to say about both those periods, but it is time to start explaining how I deconverted. And, philosophically, that started with my discovery of David Hume. [Read More...]

Bede Explains His Road To Catholicism

In college, Bede was my best friend. Today he is a monk. As I explained in a post I wrote last week, I consider him my closest philosophical brother. In that post, I alluded to the fact that it was his influence that led me to Nietzsche (through a long and arduous process I will [Read More...]

A Birthday

One of the women I will never really and fully get over, and among them the one that broke my heart the hardest and the last, turns 30 today. This was her favorite song. Wherever you are, happy birthday. [Read more...]

Meet Bede, My Best Friend in College, Who Is Now A Monk

For months as I have been writing up my deconversion narrative I have felt a lot of anxiety contemplating whether or how to talk about my best friend from college. I have brought him up a couple of times now, so far just to talk about how we met and how we fared as friends [Read More...]

When I Deconverted: Some Anger Built Up

Until recently I have always been good for an epic, massive (but always non-violent) loss of temper about 2 or 3 times a year—and a bit more often than that when I was younger or when dealing regularly with a chronically hurtful person. I think it’s been two years since I last went verbally berserk [Read More...]

When I Deconverted: I Was Not The Only One

When I deconverted, I was at one of the most seriously Christian of all reputable colleges in the country, and so nearly all of the friends I was living with there were Christians. And so I was constantly having the experience of telling people with whom I was close that I was abandoning the identity [Read More...]

When I Deconverted: My Closest Christian Philosopher Friends Remained My Closest Philosophical Brothers

October 30, 1999-present: Before becoming a non-believer, I was a serious evangelical Christian. So it was fitting (and possibly inevitable) that I had a dramatic deconversion moment the way many evangelicals have dramatic conversion moments. So there was a moment, on October 30, 1999, while flipping through The Portable Nietzsche when I decisively moved from the [Read More...]

When I Deconverted: Some Felt Betrayed

When I came out as an unbeliever at the end of my college career, one of the most disappointing rejections I initially encountered came from a family with whom I had been very close in high school. [Read more...]


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