A Birthday

One of the women I will never really and fully get over, and among them the one that broke my heart the hardest and the last, turns 30 today. This was her favorite song. Wherever you are, happy birthday. [Read more...]

Meet Bede, My Best Friend in College, Who Is Now A Monk

For months as I have been writing up my deconversion narrative I have felt a lot of anxiety contemplating whether or how to talk about my best friend from college. I have brought him up a couple of times now, so far just to talk about how we met and how we fared as friends [Read More...]

When I Deconverted: Some Anger Built Up

Until recently I have always been good for an epic, massive (but always non-violent) loss of temper about 2 or 3 times a year—and a bit more often than that when I was younger or when dealing regularly with a chronically hurtful person. I think it’s been two years since I last went verbally berserk [Read More...]

When I Deconverted: I Was Not The Only One

When I deconverted, I was at one of the most seriously Christian of all reputable colleges in the country, and so nearly all of the friends I was living with there were Christians. And so I was constantly having the experience of telling people with whom I was close that I was abandoning the identity [Read More...]

When I Deconverted: My Closest Christian Philosopher Friends Remained My Closest Philosophical Brothers

October 30, 1999-present: Before becoming a non-believer, I was a serious evangelical Christian. So it was fitting (and possibly inevitable) that I had a dramatic deconversion moment the way many evangelicals have dramatic conversion moments. So there was a moment, on October 30, 1999, while flipping through The Portable Nietzsche when I decisively moved from the [Read More...]

When I Deconverted: Some Felt Betrayed

When I came out as an unbeliever at the end of my college career, one of the most disappointing rejections I initially encountered came from a family with whom I had been very close in high school. [Read more...]

When I Deconverted: I Had Been Devout And Was Surrounded By The Devout

Last fall, I began what I expect to be a long series of posts on my deconversion. The posts so far have focused on what I was like before I deconverted, how the process of deconversion began, and how it progressed through my early college years. I still have some key phases of the deconversion [Read More...]

Study With Me This Summer

I am going to take the next few days off from blogging to get my grading done as fast as I can so I get a summer that is as long as it can be. In the meantime, I encourage you to catch up with my previous work by reading the recommended posts in the [Read More...]

Saying Goodbye

As Billy Joel sings, life is a series of hellos and goodbyes. This goodbye is for my spring 2012 students at Hofstra, Hunter, Fairfield, Fordham, and William Paterson: Thanks for a great semester, all of you. [Read more...]