Shortly after I left the Neopagan world and went through RCIA and entered the Catholic faith, I wrote an article about my crisis of faith (read: disillusionment) with paganism, which appeared on Beliefnet under the title After the Magic. Ever since that article appeared, I’ve wondered if there’s a book in that story. Back to Anne Lamott: it’s not a book I wish I could have read; on the contrary, it’s a story I lived. But then again, maybe it would have been something I would have read, if I had found it fifteen years ago.
I’ve resisted writing a book about the-Pagan-who-became-a-Catholic because I don’t want to write an anti-Pagan book, and I’ve worried that the only people who would read a book like this are fundamentalist Christians eager for exposés that reveal “the dark secrets” of Paganism. If I write a conversion book, I’d want it to be respectful of both faiths. Well, with my recent interest in the emergent conversation (the writings of folks like Brian McLaren, Scot McKnight, Peter Rollins, Spencer Burke, etc.) I’ve begun to suspect that a positive/respectful from-Pagan-to-Christian book just might be viable after all.
Now it’s just a question of what angle would I take: I could look at it politically (I became a Pagan because I wanted an ecofeminist spirituality, and I became disillusioned when I came to the conclusion that Paganism is no more inherently ecofeminist than any other faith), spiritually (I became a Pagan because I thought Christianity wasn’t mystical enough, but I came to believe that Paganism is even less mystical than Christianity), or culturally (much of my disillusionment with Paganism has to do with my discomfort with the spell-casting culture, which I think is too uncritically derivative of the overall consumer culture we live in).
Or some combination thereof.