Evil? Sure!

Evil? Sure! May 16, 2018

Oh…”evil.” Back again?

Today was weird. Here’s the synopsis (courtesy of a Tweet I wrote this morning).

Hahahahahahahahahahha. I’m so clever and awesome. Look at how much I’ve grown over the years! Look at how nicely I handled that! Look at my clever Tweet and all the love that came with it! (Thanks for that, all, by the way….)

Yeah. It happened to me today. Again.

Yes, I get strange emails offering me salvation if I would take down my wicked website and stop reading the demon oracle of Tarot. Yes, friends from Catholic school and summer Bible camp have quietly dropped me from their social media portals when they’ve gotten deeper into their faiths. Super nervous relatives have cornered me after Thanksgiving dinners to whisper that they’re praying for me to “come back around.” Okay, fine. I guess those people all mean well. Yes, I’ve shouted my classes over “Christian” protestor chants at Pagan Pride Days. Whatever. I got over a hundred responses to my tweet this morning, mostly from people who said, “WHO CARES????? WHO CARES???? EVIL EVIL US US US!!! HOORAY!!!” Yes. This is how I feel, too, in the aforementioned circumstances when it really has no bearing on me or mine or how we live our lives. 

But then there is the time when the close friend–the kind who’s let you pass out on their floor a dozen times, the one whose calls you took in the work bathroom when they got their hearts broken, the one whom you plan parties with and coordinate your outfits–has one too many whiskey-cokes and slurs that “they aren’t really supposed to be your friend because of what you do….” 

Or there’s the guy who invites you to speak on a panel for religious writers. You gladly do so and do a great job. You get laughter and applause and lots of people there start following you on the Twitterverse. And that guy (also when he’s a little drunk later), confesses that when he put your name forward, the organizer didn’t even want you to be on the panel and had threatened to cancel the whole thing…but he’s certainly glad he stuck to his guns because you were great and “totally proved his point that people like you aren’t evil at all!”

And then there’s the time when a co-conspirator on an endeavor flips that Jekyll/Hyde switch. Normally, you and this co-conspirator are a team…devising the same schemes, laughing at the same inside jokes, rolling your eyes together in unison. But one day (and they’re not even drinking!!!) they announce that you and your spiritual practices are hateful and abhorrent.

You expect it from sign-waving protestors. You even expect it from your deeply-concerned and religious family members. It’s the surprise of it all. I think that’s where the real ick comes from.  The third one happened to me today. I don’t feel hurt or sad. Not really. I just feel tired.

Glaciers are melting. Forests are set to burn again this summer. Police, with impunity, are gunning down Black people. Children and teenagers are practicing active shooter drills in schools. People with power and money are openly suppressing our democratic system in order to shape it to our liking, again, with impunity. Hate groups are being normalized and benefits meant to help poor children are being systematically crushed. I heard a talk by Marian Wright Edelman  this year. Ms. Edelman began her activist career at five years old by switching the signs on the segregated water fountains and she says this is the most evil time she has witnessed in this country’s history. Thinking of all of that evil…and someone still wants to point the finger at me? For lighting candles? For drumming in the backyard and hopping over the tiny bonfire my husband build for our Beltane this year?

The backyard Beltane fire. Ain’t it cute? 🙂

I think that’s the real tragedy. The name calling is disappointing. The rude reveal never feels good. But it’s truly sad that  there are people blind enough to actual evil going on out there to spend that energy pointing a finger at me.

I can’t change them. But I can do things for me.

Christians forgive, or are supposed to, anyway. I’ve never been sure what Witches, Wiccans, Pagans, etc. are “supposed” to do. Some of us forgive, I guess. Many of us don’t. What do my beliefs tell me to do? I thought about this all afternoon. As someone who connects with the Earth as the primary guide, I step back and look at the whole “ecosystem.” This person is not part of my life at home. They don’t sit at my dinner table, they won’t stand over me while I light my candles and commune with my Goddesses tonight. When we do interact, our connection is strong and the efforts we share are important. They clearly have some growing to do. I can find compassion because there was a time when I was scared of Witchcraft, myself. Maybe even as a young Christian I said something hurtful to a closeted Witch. I found a freedom that they do not have and there is no sense in me trying to force it out of them any more than it would make sense to bust open the azalea buds on the bush outside hoping they will bloom faster. Do flower buds fear the sun before they open to it? Maybe. The sun burns and maybe could be thought of as evil. At the same time, it does a lot of good. I’m no sun, but I do try to do good, even when I periodically (and accidentally…) light things on fire. Figuratively. Most of the time.

Today was hard and tonight, I am tired. But tomorrow, I’m going back in again with a focus on the greater ecosystem at hand, and not worry about the bud that may just need more time.

 

About Courtney Weber
Courtney Weber is an author, Priestess, Tarot adviser, and activist. She is the author of "Brigid: History, Mystery, and Magick of the Celtic Goddess" and "Tarot for One: The Art of Reading for Yourself." Courtney produced and designed "Tarot of the Boroughs" an urban Tarot deck set in New York City. She lives with her husband and cats in McMinnville. You can read more about the author here.
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  • kenofken

    People like that are no loss at all. Weed them from the garden like poisonous weeds and move on.

  • The only constant in life is change. All I hope to do is leave it better than I received it, unfortunately leaving things better than I found them is getting harder.

  • M.A.

    When they offer to pray for you, have you tried offering to do a spell for them? It’s amusing to watch them backpedal…

  • Brianna LaPoint

    Evil and good are a matter of perspective. I did an alignment test and it came back as chaotic neutral. Which explains why i dont much like black and white terms that define who i am as a person. What do you do with christians that call you evil? well we are all reflections of each other, i guess id say why dont you look in the mirror instead of pointing at me?

  • Brianna LaPoint

    There is a good reason why i weeded my friends of christians. There are Pagans that can be friends with christians, then there are Pagans like me. It depends on you and what you want to do with yourself, but i wont be subjected to christian propaganda. I will tell them why im not christian, sometimes often, but i know deep down, they wont change, and even if i do, i dont consider going back a wise decision.