Reflections of Grace 134: Toxic “Christians”

[display_podcast]Have you ever been deeply disillusioned by someone whom you thought was a friend but turned out to be a controller or manipulator and when you didn’t comply with their demands they dropped you?  Do you think because we are to seek to love everyone with God’s unconditional love that means you should allow them total access into your life?Actually real genuine love has many boundaries.  To enable someone to treat you with anything less than respect is actually enabling them … [Read more...]

Reflections of Grace 133: Those Spiritual Black Holes

[display_podcast]Have you ever had a time when you felt like you were in a spiritual black hole?   I have. The pressure seemed unbearable. No sense of God‘s presence. No sense of anything going on around me.These are the times, sorry to say, when I tend to question God’s love for us.  But then He demonstrates to me that He was there all the time. I call these times “faith experiences.”I have come to believe the black holes are needful in order to know that we have the shield that can … [Read more...]

Reflections of Grace 132: Can I Consider It Pure Joy?

[display_podcast]Feeling sorry for myself one day, I started asking myself some hard questions.   Have I been caught up in looking at the depth of pain and the depth of trials and sometimes pure craziness in my life, and thought, “Why the heck me, Lord”?  Have I not sown into your Kingdom?   When is my time coming?Yes, I am really being transparent here.“Haven’t I served you all my life?  Why so much suffering?  Starting from my childhood of abuse and ending up here, years later… sti … [Read more...]

Reflections of Grace 127: Mistaken Thinking

[display_podcast] As a young believer coming into a new group of believers, I was so shy.   I kept to myself though I longed to join other young couples and make friends.  I would watch them gather together and keep myself apart from them because I felt so inferior.  I had nothing to offer them, I thought.  I just have to look good and they will think I am together.   It didn’t work.  I mistakenly thought they didn’t like me.  This was because I always believed I was flawed because I was abuse … [Read more...]

Reflections of Grace 120: Confronting the Elephant in the Room

[display_podcast]Because I am an advocate that stands up for those who have been victims of childhood abuse and…Because I am a healed survivor of my own past of childhood abuse…I once again feel the need to speak up on behalf of that group of people that even the church tries to shush up…because the disclosure is so uncomfortable for them…so it is easier to sweep it under the rug and pretend we don’t know these things are happening every day.When are we going to start confrontin … [Read more...]

Reflections of Grace 119: Feelings or Faith?

[display_podcast]About 25 years ago, through years of denial, spiritual abuse, and unresolved childhood abuse issues, my life broke apart in huge chunks and floated away on a sea of despair.  I lost my first marriage, my home, myself, my church, and my children moved out…and did I mention I lost myself?…all within a few months of each other.Then I entered the wasteland of devastation and loss and an overload of “feelings”.How can I describe the feelings?It was like being on a … [Read more...]