An Atheist Pours His Heart Out on YouTube

This video by XandarsMeteor is depressing at hell but hard to stop watching. (It’s gotta be the voice.)

Among other things, he talks about why religious explanations for the problems in the world don’t do us justice and why a world without God just makes more sense.

Watch it. The part beginning at 2:50 is just infuriating to me:

About Hemant Mehta

Hemant Mehta is the editor of Friendly Atheist, appears on the Atheist Voice channel on YouTube, and co-hosts the uniquely-named Friendly Atheist Podcast. You can read much more about him here.

  • Elizabeth

    Where is the poster/quote from 7:44?

  • Karen Nager Loethen


  • Xandars Meteor

    Search Google images for “you are enormously significant” and you’ll find it. Cheers!

  • m6wg4bxw

    I’m glad to see contributions like this to the community, but I watched only a few minutes of it.

  • Elizabeth

    Thank you. I very much enjoyed the video. :)

  • Richard Wade

    Thank you, Zandars Meteor, that was in equal parts intimately felt, bravely expressed, eloquently worded, and masterfully produced. Thank you.

    Stay warm and safe.

  • Octoberfurst

    Fantastic video! Very moving & thought provoking. Thank you.

  • pparf

    When I was in sixth grade, I hurt myself badly at school one day and had to be taken to the doctor’s office from school (St. Irene’s, Warrenville, Illinois). The next day, one of my classmates told me that the nun who taught our class told the rest of them that either I was very good and God had chosen me to suffer on behalf of others or that I was very bad and being punished. Either way, that is, to me, a very sick message, especially for sixth graders. But as an eleven-year-old just starting into puberty, I believed that I was very bad–especially with all of my “impure” thoughts, and so I believed that I was unworthy of good things in life and would always be punished for being bad. Intellectually, I’ve rejected that dogma, through reason, but in many ways the essence of it still haunts me as it did for years after, before I rejected the belief system underpinnng it. I’m not sure why, but this video brought all of that up. Thanks for letting me vent.

  • Xandars Meteor

    I’m glad you did! Thank you and have a great New Year!

  • Xandars Meteor

    I tend to try making short videos and 10-55min later I’m finally done. :/ Brevity is the soul of wit, but I’ve learned not that lesson. Thanks for at least giving it a go!

  • Xandars Meteor

    Thank you again!

  • Xandars Meteor

    My pleasure and thank you!

  • Xandars Meteor

    Thank you, Richard. That’s an awesome compliment and I appreciate it greatly.

  • Xandars Meteor

    I’d be afraid to listen to your rants after watching some of my other videos! :)

    Seriously, I understand. That mindset (fallen and sinful) creates so much conflict in our children (or us) that takes years and years to overcome. I’ll be 35 this week (almost 2 years free from religion), and I’m still working on cleaning out the cobwebs and skeletons in my psyche. The videos help me and based on the responses, they are helping others as well, so enjoy the catharsis and hopefully that vent made some room for a new wonderful thought as a replacement. Cheers!

  • gg

    I loved the pages of the book flying free! :)

  • Adam Patrick

    Loved it and just shared it with almost everyone I know. :)

  • Art_Vandelay

    I initially thought it was a little blunt to say that people were
    blaming us (atheists) for what happened in CT but then I thought about
    it some more and yeah…pretty much. If you’re blaming “Godlessness”
    then I guess indirectly you’re blaming atheists. If I was a person that
    got offended by shit, that would have theoretically done the trick.

  • anniewhoo

    That was very moving. As sad as much of the content was. I found the overall essence of the video uplifting. The message aligns with my own philosophy of being here to experience as much of what living has to offer as possible, and the importance of striving to leave the world a better place because I was here.

  • tobias27

    I did not find this depressing. I found it rational and rather uplifting. Bad shit happens, but the more of us who accept responsibility for how we treat each other the better it can be. Thanks to X for calmly stating the truth and where it can lead us.

  • Xandars Meteor

    Thanks tobias. I have only had a couple of people mention its “depressing” impact, but the majority of the comments and reactions have been positive for the reasons you stated. Cheers!

  • Xandars Meteor

    Thank you, annie!

  • Xandars Meteor

    I really appreciate that, Adam. Thank you!

  • Xandars Meteor

    Search Google Images for “jacob’s book of life” and it should be right at the top. :)

  • Xandars Meteor

    It was a bit blunt, but the truth of the matter is that they blame the “removal of god” for the tragedy. And who did that? The damned atheists (their claim). Many of those that object to the removal of school-mandated prayer know only the buzz words and phrases and very few of the actual facts.

  • m6wg4bxw

    To be clear, I stopped the video because it was familiar. I’ve had those questions, those thoughts, those feelings. Don’t take from my example that your video is bad. It’s more like old news… years late to appeal to me, but timely for someone else.

  • Xandars Meteor

    I understand. Not everything is for everyone (something I learned on YouTube very very quickly). Have a happy New Year!

  • chicago dyke

    only two years?

    oh, it gets better. so much better. you have a wonderful life to look forward to, my friend.

    there are so many burdens in this world, and religion is one of the most horrible. the day you realize that you truly, really, surely don’t have to be afraid of angry angels, demons, djinn, spirits, a smiting god, a burning hell, and all the rest of it… it’s like some sort of homecoming. embrace your freedom. know that for the rest of your life, you’ll only feel more in touch with your fellow living being, that every day is a gift, and that you know you don’t have to live in fear. if there is such a thing as “grace,” it is that.

    and congrats on leaving the world’s most powerful child raping organization. RCC, baptist, all of them… shameful criminal rackets that any decent person must reject.

  • Jeff P

    Thanks for sharing that video. I liked it.

    Personally, I wear my atheism like a well-fitting shoe and only really think about atheism when others bring up God or the culture wars. Unfortunately, I find that others bring up these religion topics almost on a daily basis (living in a red-state). I hope we can all find longer stretches of time where we can just live according to our conscious (to do the right things) without having the old religious superstitions brought back up to us.

  • Kevin_Of_Bangor

    Little late to the party but I’ve watched your video now 3 times and I’m still in awe. I’m going to post it on my facebook page, doubt anyone will view it or even respond to it but it is a message I wish more would listen to.

  • Xandars Meteor

    Thank you! Barring the atheistic view proposed in the video, I’ve been telling my friends and family this message for years. I’m obviously not perfect at it, but when I find them “living for eternity” instead of knowing this is what we have and all we are guaranteed, I can’t keep quiet. To borrow an old christian concept, planting the seeds is an important step in bringing others to the truth.