Mo’min

“Mama, you remember Mo’min don’t you?”  Zayd asks me with wide eyes one night before we pray ‘Isha.“Yeah,” I nod as I recall the image of the well-mannered, pleasant boy who was Zayd’s friend in elementary school.  He moved to another school after a couple of years and we only saw him and his family occasionally after that at local community events.“Well he goes to my high school now but Mama, he’s different now.  I mean really different.”I look at Zayd’s unusual facial expression.  I … [Read more...]

Who Made This?

My daughter often reminds me that sometimes adults think too much for their own good.“Prove that God exists.” This challenge is laid before those who believe in Allah. Many have, but no hard and fast proof exists. If it did exist, belief in, and acceptance of, Allah (swt) would not be rewarded and considered morally good. This is why belief is no longer accepted once the major signs of the Day of Judgment begin – when physical proof of the existence of Allah is made clear. And if there was “p … [Read more...]

Greeting Strangers on a Sunny Day

A few days ago the temperature was spring-like, so the girls and I decided to go biking. Well, that is not totally truthful. They rode their bikes while I hiked behind them. We chose a challenging route that required lots of energy and a positive attitude.Along the way, as our smiles began to turn into tears, a red minivan gave us a friendly honk, and the driver waved at us and kept on going. I waved back, wondering who the driver may be. Could he or she be someone I know or could they be a … [Read more...]

Breaking Life Into Little Pieces

I always thought I had to find my one thing, the pursuit or career through which I would make my contribution to Islam, society, or humanity. Taught by motivational lecturers and life-planning books that a jack-of-all-trades would never make a difference, I thought that to give my life meaning I had to excel phenomenally at one thing. I panicked in college as I looked for the perfect formula—the field that I liked, full of potential, filled with passion, that I could realistically do with kids a … [Read more...]

While You Are Not Watching

This was the title of an email I received few days ago. Basically, it mentioned that kids learn more from what they see you do than from what you instruct them to do. When I read this email, I remembered my 12 year old son's words, "Mama, when you grow old I'll take good care of you like you do with Geddo (grandfather)". My eyes filled with tears and I was thankful to Allah.SubhanAllah!!!! I have the honor to care for my 80 year old father after he suffered a stroke. After my son's words, I … [Read more...]

Rantings- One Mother’s Way Out

It’s rather bizarre how most of the thoughts that run through my head these days are like a rant. A long-winded rant. A rant that ranges from my latest obsession with schooling options, to philosophical thoughts about motherhood and sacrifice, to aging parents, and finally around to getting some brown colored shoes. What’s wrong with me? Why have I become so incoherent – in my own thoughts?! I feel the onset of dementia sometimes.It’s no doubt, motherhood has made me a worrywart, about everyt … [Read more...]

Tips for Teaching Quran to Young Children

The responsibility of teaching young children the Quran is a heavy weight on my shoulders. I imagine most Muslim parents feel this way.Part of my discomfort is that we are a non-Arabic speaking family. For years both my husband and I have struggled to memorize the Quran. I remind my self daily, despite the circumstances, that every Muslim is obliged to make attempts to learn and understand the book of Allah (swt) in the best way possible. I tell my five-year-old son and three-year-old … [Read more...]

Sunshine

Looking back now it’s funny to think that by my mid-twenties I had thought that all my exciting firsts were behind me.  However in the past 2.5 years I’ve experienced a lot of firsts that have pushed all my other firsts to second place.  Getting married, my first home, my first child and inevitably, my first emotional moment as a mother.I was singing to my little girl while changing her, "You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.  You make me happy when skies are grey.  You’ll never know dear, … [Read more...]

That Feeling

The feeling had been with me from the start of the day: that something exciting was going to happen, though for the life of me I couldn’t figure out what it was.So in the car we all piled, with both babies fed and changed, and headed for the medical center. We got to the ophthalmology department and my husband checked in. By then I was feeling really silly, wondering why on earth I had felt the need to escort my husband to an eye exam, pushing the twins in their double stroller and making a s … [Read more...]

Lauren’s

Lauren and I met about eight years ago when I was living in California. She was my next-door neighbour and I remember having to introduce myself one sunny day in March because my son Zayd had kicked a ball over the fence into her yard so I went over to politely ask if she could throw it back. That was the day she told me her devastating news. Standing at the front door, she apologized for not having come over to introduce herself earlier. She matter-of-factly explained that her husband, David, … [Read more...]