Pick Up Your Broken Heart

Our beloved Prophet Muhammad, peace be upon him, declared that indeed, “The Muslim Ummah is like one body. If the eye is in pain then the whole body is in pain and if the head is in pain then the whole body is in pain.” We find ourselves in collective pain as current world events are breaking the hearts of millions around the country. We are witnessing unbearable levels of suffering that our generation has never before faced. The list is long: Palestine, Burma, Iraq, Syria, CAR, and many more. Fa … [Read more...]

And the Minutes Tick By

I am waiting.I know the time will come. I just don't know when.I try to get things done, and piddle around finding things to do. I prepare as best as I can think of, yet I feel it's never enough.I know my life is going to change forever, yet in the back of my mind I feel calm.I finish some work, start some more, and keep on counting the days, wondering when. Always wondering.Who knew that awaiting birth was so similar to awaiting death?I know I am going to die. Every day … [Read more...]

GrowMama Roundup Part II: Easing the Heartache of the Newtown School Shooting

The country is still reeling in the wake of the Newtown, CT. shooting. The killer has been identified; he started the day by shooting his mother and ended the day by turning the gun on himself. In between, he shot and murdered twenty schoolchildren, all between the ages of six and seven-years-old. He also killed six women who worked at the elementary school, those that taught, nurtured, loved, and in the end protected the children, paying the price with their own lives.Grow Mama readers … [Read more...]

GrowMama Roundup Part I: Easing the Heartache of the Newtown School Shooting

The headlines say it all. “20 children among the 28 killed in Connecticut slaughter.” Those whose lives were only just beginning, their innocence barely touched,  gone in a flash. The recent school shooting in Newtown, Connecticut has left not only our country, but also the entire world stunned and hearts everywhere, shattered. Whether or not you are a parent, no one can escape the tragedy that is now identified as the second deadliest school shooting ever in the United States.Like mill … [Read more...]

In Remembrance of a Life

Cleaning out my closet, I reach up to the top shelf and my hand hits a bag. I pull the bag down and reach in to see what’s inside and pull out a periwinkle-colored scarf. I hold the scarf in my hand and stare at it with a small smile. Whisper-thin, light as air, yet within the folds of that scarf there is a story, and within that story is a life.2003. My wedding day is fast approaching. After several months of looking and trying on and being dissatisfied, I find the perfect wedding outfit: a … [Read more...]

You Just Never Know

“I have to go.”  I blurted and quickly hung up.  I was sitting with a coffee in a shopping area, talking to my sister when I saw her.  She stared at me and I stared back, taking a couple of seconds to realize who she was.  “I thought it was you!” she said softly.  I got up to give her a hug.  She was Tammy, a former workplace mentor, and it had been more than five years since we had seen each other.  I  heard that she had gotten married and had a baby so I congratulated her only to find out that … [Read more...]

Room 201

Press the red button; wait impatiently for the robotic voice; hear the piercing buzzing noise allowing you in; watch the large wooden doors bang open disturbingly loud; walk down the glossy hall; pass the grim-faced nurses; turn left; there, beyond the glass sliding doors, lay our once 6’1, 200 pound, larger than life Baba- with his booming voice, contagious laugh, and decades of smile lines carved deeply into his beloved face- reduced to a skeleton barely taller than I am and weighing only 100 p … [Read more...]

Fragile Life

When I was in high school, I knew a girl named Reem Dah.  She was a kind, sweet, smiling type of person.  One morning when I rode the bus, my friend and bus mate, Rana, told me the shocking news.  A bus driver had lost control of his bus yesterday and rammed into Reem’s family car.  Her mother, father and four year old sister sitting in the front had all been killed. In a moment.  In a heartbeat.  Just like that.Reem and her two other sisters were badly injured and taken to the hospital for s … [Read more...]

My Mother Was a Woman, Too

I was twenty years old when my mother passed away. I had a great relationship with her, though her great career prevented us from spending as much time together as I'm sure we both would have liked.My mother had cancer for three years before she died, so it was not sudden or unexpected. It was painful, nonetheless, but I did not start grieving until about a month after she passed, when all the funeral-related tasks were done and I went back to college. After my first day of class, I went … [Read more...]