Bloom Where You Are Planted

I felt the vibration again. No, it wasn’t my phone. I felt it inside my head, where it’s been happening for the last few days. The vibration would last for hours and there was nothing I could do to stop it. I would wake up in a panic attack, unable to breathe. I was gripped by fear while I was dying again. The emotions always came in one package; the label spelled death.It was the second year since I stopped taking happy pills.  I was making breakfast while grasping for breath, my head still … [Read more...]

Ramadan Blues

The demanding aspects of our full time job as mothers can have a debilitating affect on our spirituality, especially if we have young children who need constant attention and nurturing. We are caught up in the wheel of chores and routines where we seldom find time for ourselves.Ramadan is when we feel it most. We reminiscence of the days when we had the freedom to worship as we please without being tied down to responsibilities. We develop a sense of regret and remorse and wish we did that … [Read more...]

Sadness, Depression, and Prophet Musa (as)

I was sitting at home a while ago, the third day into the Snowmageddon of 2010, the third day of not really talking to anyone but my two little ones, with the husband traveling and trips to my parents’ home eliminated because of the grand storm. I tend to get a bit sad, depressed when I'm alone like that, but alhamdulillah I was holding up fairly well during those days. A few nights later, I was trying to memorize some lines from Surat al Qasas, and read over the story of Prophet Moses (as) when … [Read more...]

The “D” word

It feels like drowning in the dark, and you don't know how to swim. Sometimes it feels like the sick feeling you have when you get the news that someone very close to you has a deadly disease. I can go on and on how horrible it feels but it won't be enough. That's what depression feels like.In the beginning nothing worked, I didn't know what was "happening" to me so my kind family doctor gave me anti-depressants. I remember how good they felt, "IT" was over I thought. Yes I didn't feel … [Read more...]


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