A Prayer Before Ramadan

  Oh, Allah. I remember the Ramadans before I got married. How they would be filled with night prayers, reading Qur’an, supplications in the dead of night. And I remember the Ramadan two months after I gave birth to my twin daughters, and I cry. That must have been my worst Ramadan ever, in my scale. And I remember the Ramadan when my girls were one year old, and it wasn’t much of a Ramadan for me, either. And I remember last year, when my girls were two years old. Nothing to be proud of. … [Read more...]

One Step Forward, Ten Steps Back

A few weeks ago I went with my family to the WALK NOW FOR AUTISM walk, in Washington, D.C.Groan. Talk about walking three miles with two two-year-olds who don't want to walk at the pace of the other hundreds of people. Or with your group. Or with Mama or Baba. Or according to anyone else's wishes.Nope.Two-year-olds walk the way THEY want to.So we started at 10 a.m.By 10:05 we were way behind our group. By 10:10, I couldn't see our group anymore. By 10:30, I couldn't even … [Read more...]

Random Act of Kindness

The weather was cool. The day was perfect for walking, and we had already walked three miles. My twin girls were getting a bit impatient, but that was understandable. We had walked to the library that morning, and then headed for a park I had seen on the map. But as much as we walked, we never came to it, and we had already asked two people about it and they had never heard of it.So, knowing my two-years-old’s hearts were set on going to a park, I decided to walk to the far away park; a … [Read more...]

Only When You’re Satisfied

Every. Single. Time.Every time I learn to be satisfied with what I have, Allah gives me better.I remember the first time I felt unhappy and dissatisfied was after I graduated from high school, and, as a non-Saudi living in Saudi Arabia, was not accepted into the university in Jeddah. The only option I saw in front of me was to study in a Qurán school. Oh God, I thought, this is the place all the old ladies and high school dropouts come to in the mornings. It’s not a place for someone who … [Read more...]

That Feeling

The feeling had been with me from the start of the day: that something exciting was going to happen, though for the life of me I couldn’t figure out what it was.So in the car we all piled, with both babies fed and changed, and headed for the medical center. We got to the ophthalmology department and my husband checked in. By then I was feeling really silly, wondering why on earth I had felt the need to escort my husband to an eye exam, pushing the twins in their double stroller and making a s … [Read more...]


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