After only four days of “preparation,” I’m finding it difficult to maintain an intensely spiritual mindset. I seem to be able to handle normal day-to-day distractions, but let something unusual (or unusually irritating) pop up and concentration becomes nearly impossible.
It’s times like this that make me think I should abandon Paganism and become a Buddhist. But somehow I think I’d have the same problems.
I spent some extra time in meditation last night, but all I got on the topic of fertility were images of rabbits and black soil.
Tonight’s meditation will be on the goddess Ostara.