Holler of the Holies: The Hillbilly's Sanctuary

My buddy Gordon took this photo on April 16, 2007. I know the date because we had just crossed over the Holston River in his red truck when the DJ on the country radio station stopped the music for breaking news.

“There’s been a shooting at Virginia Tech,” he said.

32 people were killed.

Dozens more were wounded.

We didn’t know that, yet, though. We wouldn’t know it until the next morning when we watched the news on Good Morning America in the sunroom of Gordon & Pam’s home in Crossville, Tennessee.

All we knew at that moment was that a gunman on campus had shot somebody’s kids, and we weren’t but an hour from the Virginia border ourselves.

We were headed for the holler where I’d spent a great deal of time that summer of 1966 after Daddy died.

My mama’s aunt,  Lucille Shropshire Christian, took us kids in so Mama could tend to the business of burying our daddy. Aunt Cil never was able to have children of her own so you can just imagine how much she loved on us.

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Cil had married an older man who had boy nearly grown already. Cousin Lon never did leave home, even after his daddy passed. Lon was deaf, and in those days, in those places, deaf children were considered unfit for schooling. So Lon wasn’t only deaf, he was a mute. He never learned how to talk. The only way to understand Lon was to know him, and the only person who knew him well enough to really communicate with him was Aunt Cil.

When you’re a little girl and your grown man cousin sits on the front porch with a loopy smile on his face, it’s kinda unnerving. You wished he wouldn’t grunt as he offers you the tin cup to get a drink of the well water he just drawed up. You don’t know if it’s proper to speak to somebody who can’t answer you back. Do you say thank you? Or do you just smile and take the cup even if you ain’t one bit thirsty?

“It’s okay. You ain’t got to be afraid,” Aunt Cil said.  “Lon can’t hear, that’s all. He ain’t going to hurt you.”

And from that moment on, you never were afraid of Lon again. You learned he had quite a sense of humor. He liked to stand with you and Brother John down at the barn and watch the two of you laugh at the pigs wallering in the mud.

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In those first few moments after you heard the news about a shooting at Virginia Tech, Gordon and you were kinda of mute. He leaned forward and turned up the volume as he drove further back into the holler, under a canopy of limey-green shade trees on either side of the road. Sometimes the Holston was so close Gordon could have spat directly into it, if he’d been so inclined.  You remember your mama telling you that the river used to flood the roads when she was a little girl and had to walk from the ferry dock to Aunt Cil’s. There wasn’t a bridge in those days, Mama said. A ferry took you acrost the river. You try to imagine your mama walking all the way up this holler.  It’s a long, long walk.

You and Gordon communicate in the way that Aunt Cil and Lon did. You understand each other’s sorrow. Not just about Virginia Tech, although there is that, but also about all that’s been eating away at Gordon from the inside out.

The cancer.

And Vietnam.

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He was just a young boy, not yet grown, when that sniper blew his jaw clean off his face. Mr. & Mrs. Wofford’s handsome son lost all his perfect pearly whites. Forever after, he would have to remember that gun battle every morning when he slipped a set of false teeth into his mouth.

Gordon first got ahold of you after he seen Miz Robin interview you on Good Morning America about that book you’d written about your daddy’s death in Vietnam.  He caught the last couple of minutes of the interview and had a heck of time trying to track down that book. But he read it in one sitting and sent you an email telling you just a brief part of his own story. And because he was a hillbilly from Tennessee, you figured him to be a gift from God. You weren’t wrong about that.

Whenever you came South, he and Miz Pam welcomed you with an uncommon hospitality. And knowing as he did, how much you loved going to up that holler by the Holston, Gordon would carry you there whenever you asked.

This trip would prove to be even more somber than you ever imagined. Maybe the shootings at Virginia Tech were a foreshadowing. If so, you’d only realize that later, when you wondered what if that brain bleed he suffered a week later had happened on that day, as you drove alongside the Holston River, dreaming about the day you’d sell enough books you could go back to Tennessee and buy Aunt Cil’s place from the people who own it now. Turn it into a place for writing stories.

So far, you’ve only made enough money to buy Aunt Cil a gravestone made from pink Tennessee marble and engraved with the saying – WORDS RISE UP OUT OF THE COUNTRY.  You chose them words to honor the woman who wasn’t afraid to tell you stories about your daddy the summer he died. She was the only person who would still say your daddy’s name to you — DAVE — after he died. Everybody else was mute when it came to talking about DAVE.

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Gordon had been undergoing test trials up in Charlottesville, Virginia, trying to cure the cancer that was growing like a turnip in his brain. During the treatment phase, he would call you at your home in Oregon whenever he got to Kingsport and talk to you until he was nearly to Knoxville, because he couldn’t help but think of your long-dead daddy, asleep in that national cemetery located about halfway between the two K-towns. You think about those phone calls now and how much you miss those stories he told you. You wish you’d written them all down, word for word.

You wish you’d known when the two of you were poking around the holler that day up at Aunt Cil’s old place that this would be the last trip you two would ever make together. But all you remember is the laughter you two shared as Gordon in his boots stomped down the grass so he could take your picture in front of the store your uncle once robbed.

“Snakes probably sleeping in these grasses somewhere,” Gordon said, as he prepared the way so you could stand next to John 3:16.

Because he had experienced the nightmare that is war, Gordon understood that what drew you back to the holler along the Holston was the memory of the safeness you felt wrapped up in the arms of your Aunt Cil.

Gordon knew that holler had been your sanctuary the summer of 1966.

You haven’t been back to the sanctuary of that holler since the day that crazed gunman killed all those precious people at Virginia Tech, since the cancer killed Gordon just like he always said it would, since the day the music died.

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Gordon, Butterbean, A.J., the scarecrow and dinner.

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I got to thinking about Gordon and that trip to the holler after reading Sweet Sanctuary, a book written by Cindy Coloma & Shelia Walsh. Patheos is hosting a discussion here about the notion of sanctuary. Please feel free to pop over there, of if you like, just join in the conversation below.

So what about you? Do you have a place of sacred memory? A person who gave you shelter? A sanctuary where you have sought and found refuge? Your very own Holler of the Holies?

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About Karen Spears Zacharias

Author. Speaker. Journalism Instructor. Four kids. Three dogs. One grandson.

  • http://www.garynelson.wordpress.com Gary

    Oh, Karen… what a great post. I cherish the friendship and bond Gordon and I had after a gal from 2,000 miles away brought us together! I won’t ever forget that, or the surreal moment of walking past you at Erlanger, seeing you and hollering out your name. I was there for my son’s appointment and had NO idea Gordon was even there. It was the second time we met and I recognized you because we had just become friends on MySpace days before. Out of the 1000′s of people there and just to happen to pass you in that hallway at that particular time. We went up with you into that waiting room in the ICU, my son in a wheelchair, and we met with Gordon’s family and all prayed together for Gordon ~ I won’t ever forget any of that! Or the dear friendship we share. I absolutely LOVE that pic. of Gordon with groundhog in hand at the garden with AJ and Butterbean! What a priceless photo! Thanks for everything!

  • http://simplydarlene.wordpress.com Simply Darlene

    Wow. In a day so covered with lingering sadness, this story and the first comment really point to how God places just the right people in our lives at just the right time.

    Thank you for raising your country words up past your heart and through your pen.

    Blessings.

  • Lillian

    God does place people in our lives at just the right time. Karen and I met as a result of the tragic deaths of loved ones, her father in Vietnam and my only daughter on 9/11. She has visited my sanctuary, a small cabin on a farm lake in Georgia. We sat on the porch over breakfast and talked about our loss.
    Today, she mentioned the shooting at Virginia Tech. Our little town in Georgia lost someone on 9/11 and one from the VA Tech shooting. My family and the victim’s family of the VA Tech shooting are close friends. In a special memorial park here there are two
    plaques on brick walls….. one for my daughter Marjorie and one for Jamie Bishop who taught German at VA Tech. Jamie’s father is Michael Bishop, the award winning science fiction writer, and his mother is the granddaughter of the late physician that delivered Marjorie. Jamie grew up in his great-grandfather’s house where Mike does his writing in his attic studio.
    Marjorie sent email the evening before 9//11 telling us that her office was very busy, working long hours on getting the military budget out by Oct 1st. Her best friend and co-worker in the office of the administrative assistants to the Secretary of the Army would be a little late getting to work on the next morning because she had an early doctor’s appointment. She arrived at the Pentagon just as the plane struck the office. She watched in horror knowing that my daughter and everyone in the office were engulfed in the flames.
    No one in the office survived. It has been almost 10 years, but to me it seems only yesterday. For several years I could hardly bear to talk about the tragedy. A concert in Marjorie’s memory will be held on Sunday evening on 9/11 at the Callaway Auditorium on
    the LaGrange, Ga, College Campus. Some of her former high school and college class mates along with friends and relatives of our family will be among those attending. I am sure I will shed tears.

    • Karen Spears Zacharias

      And I’ll be shedding some along with you, sweet Lillian. Thank you for sharing Marjorie with us once again. Hard to believe that Pine Mountain has lost two wonderful people in such tragic ways.


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