This week. Mother's had their babies blown from their arms, the storm too strong. Other's clung tight as their infants breathed their last in my best friend's back seat, blood transfusions and machine-oxygen not enough to revive.I hold the hearts in my thoughts and I pray harder. I lock eyes with this one momma, baby growing cold in her lap and I whisper, "I know." And I murmur a prayer over her but there really aren't words so we just cry and we hold each other all the way home. I remember too … [Read more...]

I can see the women with their eyes wide as they tremble in front of the empty tomb.They listen to the angel's words – can it be? - and they scurry, terrified and full of joy.Terrified and full of joy - I live there. It is possible to be afraid of what obedience might bring next and be full of thanks and overflowing joy and TRUST anyway. This giddy anticipation because we see all that He has done for us and we believe that He can only bring more good. Good, even in the ugly.They see Him and … [Read more...]

I can see the women with their eyes wide open as they tremble in front of the tomb.They listen to the angels words – can it be? - and they scurry, terrified and full of joy.Terrified and full of joy - I live there. It is possible to be afraid of what obedience might bring next and be full of thanks and overflowing joy and TRUST anyway. This giddy anticipation because we see all that He has done for us and we believe that He can only bring more good. Good, even in the ugly.They see Him and … [Read more...]

on earth as it is in heaven 2011-04-22 09:38:00

“I don’t want to do this,” I half scream at her, half plead to God. “I don’t want to walk this path, I don’t want to be this person, I don’t want to raise this daughter who doesn’t know who she belongs to and sometimes hugs me tight but sometimes pushes me far. I don’t want to let this birth mom live with us, knowing she can leave whenever she pleases and rip these wounds wide open again. I don’t know if I can do this.” “I don’t want to do this,” she sobs into my … [Read more...]

“I don’t want to do this,” I half scream at her, half plead to God. “I don’t want to walk this path, I don’t want to be this person, I don’t want to raise this daughter who doesn’t know who she belongs to and sometimes hugs me tight but sometimes pushes me far. I don’t want to let this birth mom live with us, knowing she can leave whenever she pleases and rip these wounds wide open again. I don’t know if I can do this.” “I don’t want to do this,” she sobs into my … [Read more...]

on earth as it is in heaven 2011-04-13 23:43:00

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breathing deep

I stand at my laptop in its corner on the kitchen counter, stew bubbling, children playing, clock ticking. I stand here and I read the prayers of friends and strangers alike who love my family enough to spend their time whispering to Him on our behalf. Tears stream and I am blown away by this love and His grace. I look around and I type out words and layers of my heart peel back, bare on the screen. Yes, this is life, Yes, this is real, Yes this is happening. Monday morning the gate rattled … [Read more...]

breathing deep

I stand at my laptop in its corner on the kitchen counter, stew bubbling, children playing, clock ticking. I stand here and I read the prayers of friends and strangers alike who love my family enough to spend their time whispering to Him on our behalf. Tears stream and I am blown away by this love and His grace. I look around and I type out words and layers of my heart peel back, bare on the screen. Yes, this is life, Yes, this is real, Yes this is happening. Monday morning the gate rattled and … [Read more...]

on earth as it is in heaven 2011-03-21 13:46:00

Wishing with all my heart right now that the internet was not the internet and was a safer place for me to share the specific cries of my heart. Right now though, we are just asking for prayer. I am so thankful for the Body of Christ who will lift us up during this especially difficult season. I am so thankful for the Spirit who intercedes on my behalf before I even have the words to pray. I am so thankful for God’s grace that never runs out and is enough for today and enough again … [Read more...]

Wishing with all my heart right now that the internet was not the internet and was a safer place for me to share the specific cries of my heart. Right now though, we are just asking for prayer. I am so thankful for the Body of Christ who will lift us up during this especially difficult season. I am so thankful for the Spirit who intercedes on my behalf before I even have the words to pray. I am so thankful for God’s grace that never runs out and is enough for today and enough again … [Read more...]

on earth as it is in heaven 2011-03-04 11:22:00

“I am so old. My whole body hurts. I have suffered much,” her eyes shine with joy as she speaks, “oh, I am suffering. But whatever He wants. Whatever God wants!” And she laughs and she laughs. We sit in our circle in the dust of a slum and we share our hearts and our prayers. Jja Ja Maria, who looks to be a hundred years old and reaches no higher than my shoulders, is the last to share. Her life, it has been hard. She is in Jinja because she had to flee from the war in the North that … [Read more...]


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