Into the Deep

Ambata Kazi-Nance

A friend once told me when I was going through a tough time that nothing is permanent. As a person of faith I know not even death is permanent. That piece of advice has helped me when I stumble into fits of melancholy. I remind myself when I’m having one of those days where despite my best efforts, sadness or frustration or anger keeps blocking my path, that this day won’t last forever. But one thing I have also learned is that once you lose someone, the grief over that loss never lea … [Read more...]

Just Say Yes + {Recipe}

Nazia

Now that I’ve managed to sit through my very first scary movie without wetting myself, I’m feeling pretty brave, and dare I say, excited for another. It’s the first time in my life where I’m actually looking forward to watching a scary movie as opposed to digging my heels in with a big fat no. Hey, look at me - all grown up.In case you’re wondering, the movie was The Conjuring. I’m not saying I’m suddenly into scary movies, but I kind of feel cheated by the experience. All that build up and i … [Read more...]

My body is not an invitation

Key Ballah

He said my name like a ghost. A whisper from behind. A quiet wind hot and hollow. He said it lazily and slack mouthed, not parting his full lips wide enough to let every letter through. He said it without the sigh of relief at the end that it needed to sound familiar, like it was not so sweet it could make his eyes water.I should have known. I should have known what kind of man he was when he held his tongue between his teeth and let his eyes off their leash to roam un … [Read more...]

The Weight of Other People’s Expectations

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Eds. Note: Please welcome our newest writer Laura P.! Look for her column Integrity of Heart the second Wednesday of every month. “Will you marry me?”I’m usually very good at avoiding situations like this. But I didn’t expect a proposal from a Muslim guy I only saw waiting for the bus in the morning.“Sorry, I’m not interested, but thanks for asking.”“OK, cool.”Fortunately, he seemed to accept that and didn’t bring it up again, because I’d already started thinking … [Read more...]

Is my ex an FBI informant?

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He was undoubtedly attractive – tall, lean and muscular, caramel colored skin, full lips, high cheekbones that framed his deeply intense hazel eyes. But his black leather jacket, felt fedora, acoustic guitar swung over his shoulder and beatnik poetry journal in his back pocket were really the accessories that put me over the edge.He had a very expressive face but there were two expressions that stuck out the most – an affable, goofy grin, and the furrowed brow intensity of a poet deep in tho … [Read more...]

Integrity of Heart, Peace of Soul: Finding My Path as an Asexual Muslim

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I’m not able to be a “good Muslim wife”. In fact, I’m not able to be in a conventional marriage at all.I’m asexual, aromantic, and sex-averse. Asexuality is a sexual orientation characterized by experiencing little or no sexual attraction to any person1. Aromanticism means that I do not experience romantic attraction, or falling in love, to any person either. As for the sex aversion, that’s what ultimately makes marriage out of the question for me. While not all asexual individuals are sex-av … [Read more...]

Mothering in the Shadows

Ambata Kazi-Nance

Editor's Note: Please welcome our newest writer Ambata Kazi-Nance whose monthly column Not Without Love will appear the fourth Wednesday of every month!It’s late at night, or maybe the wee hours of the morning before dawn. It’s quiet, the kind of quiet where you can hear the breathing patterns of everyone in the house and the creaks in walls and ceilings like invisible footsteps. Soft, yellow light glows like a halo around my crib. I am crying. I can’t hear myself crying but I must be bec … [Read more...]

Fairytale Beginnings

zainab

Tiny Love Story"And what do you do?" so many have asked."I tell stories," the girl said.One by one they've walked away, not understanding the language she speaks.Until one day..."I tell stories," said she."Then you are brave," said he, "and you should keep telling them. I want to hear them all."The End.Like a conjurer, I have dozens of stories like this up my sleeve. They come to me at inopportune moments, waking me up at three in the morning or badgering me in … [Read more...]

A Hate Crime Against the Universe

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It was a rainy and cold night in Los Angeles. The rarity of the rain added a sheen of intrigue as I drove up the 101 freeway through downtown. I glanced at the overpasses above, nearing the place where I'd been told the signs would be. Sure enough, there they were - jankier than I expected, but still expressing their intended hatred. In black pixelated letters one sign said No, and the other featured the image of a crescent and moon.I took the next exit. After circling around for a few min … [Read more...]

Where the hell is my chivalry?

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Eds. Note: Please welcome comedian, playwright and Love InshAllah anthology contributor Zahra Noorbakhsh! You can find her column, My Infidel Husband, here every fourth Thursday of the month.On my 26th birthday, I shot awake with the realization that I was in my mother’s relationship.My then boyfriend (now husband), Duncan, and I had just moved in together, shortly after celebrating our two-year anniversary. In all this time, he had never bought me a present. I looked over at him snoring … [Read more...]


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