A Living Disappointment

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My mom has been doing a good job keeping just how disappointed she is in me and in my life choices to herself these days. A couple of years ago she went all out and left me in tears, wanting to curl into a ball, and ultimately in therapy. These days, she just purses her lips. Usually. Recently, though, we had a conversation in which she confirmed what a huge disappointment she views me as. It's not that I didn't know, but it's hard to hear said.To my mother, I am a living disappointment. You … [Read more...]

Live Every Moment

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Do you know what has been most surprising to me of all about adulthood? How fast time moves. For example, today is Christmas, and I don't remember once having that "oh my goodness I can't wait Christmas is taking forever to come" feeling. No, I only had the "what wait is Christmas really that soon I'm not ready for it yet" feeling. Sally, of course, felt differently, as I did at her age.I've realized more and more that every day I live is a day I will never get back. Every evening is an … [Read more...]

I Am Not a Child

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Over Thanksgiving we got together with some relatives on Sean's side of the family. One of his cousins, whom I will call Hillary, is about ten years older than Sean and I, and watching her interact with her mother (Sean's aunt) was fascinating. Her mother, you see, can be a bit overbearing. Hillary, don't you think this, and Hillary, don't you think that, and so on. But that didn't phase Hillary. Hillary obviously loves her mom and vice versa and they appear to have a strong and healthy … [Read more...]

Thanksgiving Traditions Anyone?

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Thanksgiving is upon us, so I thought I would open a thread for swapping Thanksgiving traditions! Since Sean and I generally take the kids to relatives' homes for Thanksgiving we haven't really developed any traditions specific to us, but I have good memories of quite a number of Thanksgiving traditions from my childhood. I'll highlight two of these traditions to get us started.First, my mother would put two kernels of corn on each plate before the meal began. We would all sit down and look … [Read more...]

My Father, an Enigma

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"Libby, you could be an engineer. You have the mind for it."My dad made this comment while we were in the car, driving by a factory of some sort. I was probably around sixteen. My dad's comment was completely offhand, and I didn't bother to respond. Inside, though, I was baffled. Why would my dad suggest such a thing? Didn't he realize that my lot in life, the lot God had designed for me, was to be a homemaker, raising children, caring for my husband, and tending the home? Couldn't he see … [Read more...]

I’m Not Angry Anymore

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I used to be angry at my parents. As regular readers will know, when I started forging my own way while in college my parents responded in a way that completely ruined our relationship and sent me into therapy. They caused me incredible pain and treated me in ways no parent should treat their newly adult child. They forced me to choose between my family and my freedom. And for a while, I was angry---and I had good right to be angry! But I'm not angry anymore.People are fallible, and my … [Read more...]

Love Misapplied

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I grew up hearing about Chris Jeub. He was a big name in NCFCA homeschool debate circles, and while I never met him I did use the evidence briefs he put out. The Jeubs had 16 kids and were deep into the patriarchal and controlling ideas at the heart of the most conservative strains of the Christian homeschooling movement. In fact, they kicked their daughter Alicia out of the family and shunned her completely when she became "rebellious."¬†However, Chris says that he and his family have since left … [Read more...]


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