The Gift of Depression

  Truth be told, I haven’t been doing well. Depression weighs heavily on me, and the worst part is that I know I’m not really. It is just a feeling, suffocating the life out of me. Don’t tell me to read my Bible more, I already do. Don’t tell me to look for sin in [Read More…]

Vlog Episode 2

The Sermon I listened to today: God Is Good, God is Present and He is Not Silent [Read more…]

High Functioning Dysfunction

This Mighty article by Amanda Leventhal popped up on my facebook feed today: This is basically my story, too. I vividly remember crying to myself that “I’m not crazy. I’m not crazy. I’m not crazy.” even before I was 13. I carved those words into the bookshelf above my bed to help me stay grounded. [Read More…]

The Gift of Therapy

I’m back in therapy after too long a lapse. New therapist, this time, an older presbyterian minister who also has a long list of credentials and achievements to support his certification as a counselor. I’m not embarrassed to talk about needing help. It is just part of being human. When my daughter asks why I need [Read More…]

Like David

I’m failing at Advent. Ben is really good about lighting the candles, dolling out treats, reading scripture to us and singing Advent songs with our family whenever he is home. But the nights where has to work… it feels like I’m barely passing as human, let alone a spiritual guide for my children. We watch a lot [Read More…]

Lou Rhodes and Chicken Soup

It is raining outside, something the Northwest desperately needs right now. These are my favorite kind of days. The rain patters on the skylight above my kitchen. My girls are spending the weekend with Mimi and Poppi (Ben’s parents), so it is just me and the guys. Ben spent the afternoon sleeping after working a [Read More…]

Babysteps

I don’t know how to start into this and I’m not sure if what I am experiencing will bless anyone. God works in mysterious ways. We’ve been really busy. All four of the kids are back in school for the year. They absolutely love it. My boys anxiously await the three days a week they [Read More…]

Gospel Suffering

“Whenever you love, you reenact Jesus’ death. Consequently, gospel stories always have suffering in them. American Christianity has an allergic reaction to this part of the gospel. We’d love to hear about God’s love for us, but suffering doesn’t mesh with our right to “the pursuit of happiness.” So we pray to escape a gospel [Read More…]

Transition

You know that feeling when you are in labor, transition stage, I think they call it, right before you begin to push the baby out? Do you remember the sense of being hopelessly overwhelmed? The pain seems almost unbearable, but Mamas know that when they reach that point in the birth of their child, that [Read More…]

Enough

My eyes are swollen. My face hurts. Crying will do that. Do you ever have days where no matter how hard you pray, you simply can’t shake feeling discouraged? Today I am crossing another name out of my prayer book and adding his family. Praying for their comfort and peace as they walk through the [Read More…]