For Brooksie, upon his turning ten months old.

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You turned ten months old last Tuesday. Almost every other month of your living, we've celebrated the 16th with a photo and a little "Happy X month birthday, T-Rexy!" This time, I didn't even notice. I was waiting all week for the 19th which, amazingly, I thought was your 10 month birthday. It didn't even occur to me until the night of the 18th that you were born on a 16, not a 19. Oh, honey, I'm sorry you're the second born. I'm afraid it will always be like this, my love. I'm not so good with … [Read more...]

The Very First Poem-a-Day Friday

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Remember how I made a New Year's Resolution that I would be reading, really reading and thinking about, one poem a day for the year of 2012? I love poetry, I write poetry, I studied poetry, but it's amazing how difficult it can be to make poetry a priority in my reading life. I have a pile of books that I've been meaning to get to for years and my commitment to one poem a day is how I'm going to get to it. Here's where you come in. I know my posts about poetry are never the most popular. And, … [Read more...]

How He Entered

“…a son, a male child, who will rule all nations with an iron scepter.”   -Revelation 12:5 He entered, not a barn, not a hay-filled nursery, but a galaxy, a kingdom groaning for his rule. He arrived, not from a young woman, trembling and homeless, but a queen enthroned in stars. We saw him, one fleshy hand raised in reflex, as if in his infancy, we might grasp deliverance. He was found, not in David’s town, not in swaddling cloths, an unknown child wiggling in straw, but as a hero … [Read more...]

Christ’s Mother Reflects, His Childhood

“and for him to see me mended / I must see him torn.”  -Luci Shaw “Mary’s Song” He stood at the door, wet-faced and panting. in his hands three baby birds. They’re hungry, he sniffed, nested them in a bowl with grass, fed them worms until they died. After, I held him for an hour, his soul too much for this world. Who doesn’t want normal for her son? Yet he chose the lonely of the children, played ball with the friendless. He was quiet, sat with me long hours, watching: the … [Read more...]

Darkness

"For Behold, darkness shall cover the earth, and gross darkness the people; but the Lord shall rise upon thee, and His glory shall be seen upon thee, and the Gentiles shall come to thy light, and kings to the brightness of thy rising." -Handel’s Messiah (from Isaiah, chapter 60) “Immensity, cloister’d in thy dear womb, / Now leaves His well-beloved imprisonment. -John Donne “La Corona” We are all some mother’s child, all born through great pain, then a flood of release, an … [Read more...]

Pancakes, baby kindness, cards addressed, Mary ‘[curled] in a brown pod’

And the list goes on... Listening to Chris Hohorst (Chris Hohorst!) making up a song with August at bedtime: "I'm in the nook! I'm in the reading nook!" How my baby holds his blankey to my face or his pacifier to my mouth...sharing what he loves most with his mama. (Oh, and "MahMahMahMah," he says.) August putting baby Jesus to bed so sweetly. A meaningful conversation with one of my college girls on my couch, 9 pm during finals week. A kitchen table full of 18-year-old girls, eating … [Read more...]

The Lord is With Thee

The Lord is With Thee  -from the Gospel of Luke, Chapter 1 They hail me Mary, full of grace. They bless me: brave, obedient—holy. What would you have said to the twelve-foot, light-soaked man, a gold flecked tower whose honey lips spoke your name? I said Yes. Then ran, traveled days, silent, hungry, purging in the grass, to my cousin’s. I knew nowhere else to go. I found Elizabeth, impossibly, full with child. She, fifty and bare, as pregnant as I, thirteen, unknown. We, an absurd … [Read more...]

Star

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Star “A great and wondrous sign appeared in heaven: a woman clothed with the sun, with the moon 
under her feet and a crown of twelve stars on her head.”
   -Revelation 12:1 “…keep warm this small hot naked star/ fallen into my arms.”  -Luci Shaw, “Mary’s Song”   After the angel dissolved, I stood among the skies, clothed not in spun linen, but in fire: the sun’s silk my gown. I leaned into the swirl of gold and lit. Have I created my Creator? My … [Read more...]

College Thankful

The boys and I get our "guns up" at my Homecoming game. (Yes, those are streamers around our heads.)

Welcome to Thankful Tuesday on a Thursday. I hope that's not terribly confusing. I spent the weekend at my college’s Homecoming for my ten-year reunion. Now, let me explain something to you. I did not go to a school known for its academic rigor, though I learned plenty. I didn’t go to a school that anyone has ever heard of, even in Texas, and especially not in the parts of the country I’ve been living in for the past decade. But I went to the perfect school, the place where I was most … [Read more...]

“Forever — is composed of Nows”

We have a new poem, dear memorizing friends. I know you always think I've forgotten. But I really haven't. I'm just waiting and thinking. (Or, more likely, distracted by everything else in my life that's not poetry.) Did you know that I love Emily Dickinson? I love her for being so very weird. I love her freaky white dress she wore as a "recluse" and the apocryphal treats she lowered to children in a basket from her window when she was a bit too anxious to leave her room. I love her for … [Read more...]