Another Eid, Another Scramble

Salaam Alaikum wa Rahmatullah Eid al Adha is rapidly approaching.  Where did the time go?  I thought the first Eid was just over.  The bounce house, the visitors, the food, the hyperactive children running through the yard?  And now, a mere three days from now, I have to muster the strength to wake up early and dress five children and shepherd them to an Eid prayer I won't even hear before I've even had my first cup of coffee.The Eids always catch me unaware.  Every year I promise myself tha … [Read more...]

What Will Remind us of our Fate?

Salaam Alaikum wa RahmatullahAfter news of yet another devastating earthquake, this time in the eastern part of Turkey, we are left wondering how many more of these disasters are going to follow in quick succession.  Just here in the United States, we have endured, in various parts of our country, floods, wildfires, drought, hurricanes, and tornadoes.  In my own area, we experienced a rare moderate earthquake.  Anyone living in a quake-prone area might poo-poo our shock and amazement at the r … [Read more...]

The death of (another) tyrant

Salaam Alaikum wa RahmatullahYesterday the tyrant Qadhafi was killed, and as the news spread, response to his death lit up the blogosphere and social networks. On my own Facebook page, my wall was flooded with comments ranging from "Whoopie!" to "He's a martyr!".  I kept my own response short and simple, commenting that instead of obsessing about his death, we should concentrate on the state of our own souls, because on the Day of Judgment each of us will be worried about ourselves to the … [Read more...]

Why Would I Leave Islam?

Bismillahi Rahmani RahimSalaam Alaikum wa RahmatullahIt's my anniversary, well, sort of.  Eighteen years ago on Labor Day weekend, a Sunday, I said my Shahadah.  I was standing in the front lobby of the Islamic Society of Greater Kansas City.  I had just attended a class for the sisters, and everyone had left.  The only ones still in the building were the Imaam, me, and some guy vacuuming.  I was nervous.  I had talked about saying my Shahadah with the ladies in the … [Read more...]

Alhamdulillah, Have to Count Our Blessings

Bismillahi Rahmani RahimSalaam Alaikum wa RahmatullahOriginally this post was going to be a vehement screed against improper behavior in the masjid.  Well, not just "the masjid" in general, but in the masjid my family goes to.  My husband has been spending the odd nights of the last ten days of Ramadan in itikaaf, and last night was the 27th.  He came home directly after fajr, frustrated and definitely not in the spiritual, contemplative mood of someone who had spent the night in … [Read more...]

Lailat al Qadr, You Say? I’m Not Feelin’ It….

Bismillahi Rahmani RahimSalaam Alaikum wa RahmatullahOkay, so tonight is the 27th of Ramadan.  We are instructed to look for Lailat al Qadr, the Night of Power, in the odd nights of the last ten days, with particular emphasis on the 27th.  My husband left for the masjid before iftaar, and I am here home with the kids.  Sigh.  The kids.  The one who came home crying from school because his brother got a bottle of soap bubbles to play with from the prize box in his class … [Read more...]

Ramadan So Far

Bismillahi Rahmani RahimSalaam Alaikum wa RahmatullahHow is my  Ramadan going so far?  Am I spending my days in constant remembrance of Allah?  Am I devoting more time to study and acts of 'ibaadah?  Am I feeling a huge spiritual uplift this time of year?  Well, for me it's both simple and complicated.  I do remember Allah all during the day, but that is a really everyday thing for me.  I think it's part of my anxiety / guilt complex, but I am always AWARE of … [Read more...]

Mervat woke up for suhoor….

As usual, I stumbled out of bed this morning at o-dark-thirty to make suhoor.  I repeated my morning ritual of opening the fridge and staring at the contents.  As before, nothing jumped out at me so I grabbed the eggs and bread.  In a burst of creativity, I decided on scrambled eggs today instead of fried, and toast on the side.  Oh, and I prepared a pizza bagel for my son, who had asked me the night before that if I could please make one for him that would be great, but if I … [Read more...]

Hitting the Suhoor Wall….

Bismillahi Rahmani RahimSalaam Alaikum wa Rahmatullah.Halfway through Ramadan.  The alarm clock went off on time.  Bleary-eyed, I stumble to the kitchen to make suhoor, the morning meal that is supposed to sustain us throughout the day of fasting.  I stand there in front of the refrigerator, staring at the contents, contemplating what to make.  I start rummaging through yogurt containers, none of which actually contain yogurt.  Hmm... cucumber salad, leftover pasta, … [Read more...]

Read to Feed – A Program for Masaajid

Bismillahi Rahmani Rahim Salaam Alaikum wa Rahmatullah Okay, so I was a good girl and got up promptly when the alarm went off this morning.  I made a nice suhoor (pre-fast meal) of eggs, turkey bacon, toast, and dates.  Yes, I buttered the toast, but no jam.  The baby woke up with us, which makes preparing food a challenge.  I can’t really trust my drowsy husband to keep track of him because, well, let’s just say Sherif is not terribly effective when he first wakes up (t … [Read more...]