Sermon on the Kyrie, Peter’s Own Smell of Shame and the God of Easter

 

2013-4-14 NBW Sermon<—Click here to listen along.

Kyrie eleison –Lord have mercy

There is a setting of the Liturgy that I despise above all other settings of the liturgy because the Kyrie is so bouncy it sounds like a Fanta commercial.  (for those of you reading this and not listening…I sing this line) Kyrie eleison, on our world and on our way Kyrie eleison, every day. like it’s from a soundtrack of Up With People!

And every time I hear it I think it sounds like, at any minute, the congregation might bust out jazz hands and a dance line.

This all bothers me a) because, let’s face it, I’m an insufferable snob and b) are we or are we not begging Almighty God to have mercy on us?

Kyrie eleison indeed.

We say or sing it every week, the Kyrie, the one piece of the Christian mass that is still in Greek.  For some reason it never made it over to Latin like the rest of the liturgy did. But what do we mean by saying Lord, have mercy?

Some may say it’s asking God to not punish us for our sin – to not rain down fury and violent retribution on us and maybe there’s a place for that, but

Maybe Lord have mercy, Christ have mercy Lord have mercy is just shorthand for Please do not punish us by our sins… maybe asking for God’s mercy is like saying – we beg you God that our sin is not the final word. We beg you for your mercy to be with us, because ours is not enough. We pray for your wisdom to be with us, your lovingkindness to be with us because we just don’t have enough of our own. And we keep messing everything up. It seems that especially in situations where we are overwhelmingly aware of our shortcomings and smallness that we beg this of God.

Peter surely understood this if anyone did.

He had been a common fisherman when Jesus walked by and said follow me. Peter dropped his nets and everything he had known and followed this Jesus of Nazareth. And with him, walking the road together, Peter had seen great things. Miraculous wonders, healings, acts of power and grace. Peter was the first to call Jesus the messiah – he was, above all, earnest in his devotion. And yet, when it came down to it, Peter, like so many of us, was unable to live up to even his own values and ideals. When the hour of Jesus’ betrayal and death came, Peter could not be the man he hoped he would be. Peter did not bravely stay by Jesus’ side, choosing instead to slink away and anonymously warm himself by a charcoal fire.  But you just can’t warm feet that have gone that cold.  And he did not go unnoticed, as he wished, because 3 times he was asked by passersby: Wait you know him don’t you?? and 3 times Peter said “I do not”.  He loved him yet in Jesus’ hour of death, Peter denied he even knew him. He was tested and he was found wanting. Kyrie eleison. Lord, have mercy.

I simply cannot imagine what Peter felt about himself after that. Could he have been filled with anything…anything but unfiltered remorse and regret and self-loathing?  How could he live with himself? I do not know if Peter was punished for his sin but he I’m certain he was punished by his sin. How many times after Jesus died did he replay those hours in his head wishing beyond hope that he could just go back and change it. Re-write his own past. lord, have mercy. Who among us can’t relate to that feeling?

So in our Gospel text for today, when Peter jumps into the sea and encounters Jesus on the beach grilling fish over a charcoal fire, I imagine Peter’s olfactory triggered memory of another charcoal fire. A charcoal fire around which he warmed himself with his own self-protection and fear.  Denying his Lord and warming his hands. His own smell of shame.

But the resurrected Christ does such an unbelievably loving and merciful thing. He does not rebuke Peter for failing him in his time of need – instead he gives Peter breakfast and then he gives Peter 3 chances to proclaim his love. 1 for each of his denials.  Do you love me Peter?  With the smell of charcoal in his nostrils I wonder if Peter could possible have answered yes without tears in his eyes.  I have failed you Lord and denied you in your hour of death despite everything in me that knew it was wrong but yes.  3 times yes. I love you Lord.  Have mercy upon me.

The adjective so often coupled with mercy is the word tender, but this mercy was not tender, this mercy was a blunt instrument. Mercy doesn’t wrap a warm, limp blanket around offenders, God’s mercy is the kind that kills the thing which wronged it and resurrects something new in it’s place.  In our guilt and remorse we may wish for nothing but the ability to re-write our own past, but What’s done can not, will not, be undone.  The words that we have spoken, cannot be unspoken.  Our past can not be re-written, But I am here to say that in the mercy of God it CAN be redeemed.  I cling to this truth more than perhaps any other.  I have to. I need to. I want to. For when we say Lord have mercy, what else could we possibly mean than this?

Many of you know that a week ago today, a friend of mine, who happens to be a Lutheran Bishop, got into his car after having had a number of drinks. He was on his way to an official church function when he lost control and hit and killed Maureen Mengel, a 52 year old mother of three who was running on a jogging path near the road. Kyrie eleison. What could possibly be filling every inch of his jail cell except remorse, regret, self-loathing and wishing he could just go back in time and not get in that car. If he could just re-write the past. If he could just not have done that horribly negligent thing that day, Maureen would be alive and he would not be facing years in prison and the emotional lead vest of knowing he has taken a life.  He could still be doing ministry and helping Palestinian Christians and supporting a hospital in India and loving people. But that’s not ever going to happen and there is enough tragedy in this story to around and for everyone to have seconds.

And all I know is that while he cannot re-write his actions from last week, I simply have to cling tightly to the truth that GOD CAN REDEEM it. That is not to minimize the unspeakable loss of a life. That is not to minimize the need for justice.

But God is a God of Easter.

And earlier we heard the story of Saul’s conversion. Saul had been traveling about hunting down Christians like he was competing in a first century religious persecution version of the amazing race- he had been present at and approved of the stoning death of Steven and was on his way to round up more Christians for jail and execution when he experienced the resurrected Christ. After the blunt instrument of God’s mercy was done with Saul, he would be re-named Paul…as in the Apostle Paul who would then start many of the early churches and who penned most of the letters in what is now called the New Testament. All of that is to say, God can redeem anything and anyone.

And to say Lord have mercy, Christ have mercy, Lord, have mercy is to lay our hope in the redeeming work of the God of Easter as though our lives depended on it because they do. It means that we are an Easter people, a people who know that Good Friday is never the final word, that resurrection – especially in and among the least likely people and places is the way that God redeems our crap out of even the biggest messes we make.   I’ve made some doozys in my life and somehow the fractures and lacerations caused by my selfishness or anger or my sharp tongue or drunkenness are never the final thing. God’s redemptive work in the world is the final thing.

So either God can redeem everything or God can redeem nothing and I stand here before you believing the former and not the later because it is Easter and the tomb was empty and Peter the Christ denier became Peter the rock on whom the church was built and Saul the persecutor of Christians became Paul the Apostle. So, Lord have mercy, Christ have mercy, Lord have mercy.  God can redeem anything. Amen.

 

About Nadia Bolz Weber

I am the founding Pastor at House for All Sinners and Saints in Denver, Colorado. We are an urban liturgical community with a progressive yet deeply rooted theological imagination. Learn more at www.houseforall.org

  • MCB

    You have absolutely no idea how much I needed to read this today. I have been in a terrible guilt spiral for several days now, and… this made me cry and let some of that out. Thank you, I mean it.

  • http://jesuswithoutbaggage.wordpress.com/ Jesus Without Baggage

    Creative, vivid, thoughtful, personal. Thanks for the wonderful sermon.

  • JBar14

    Beautiful, eloquent, and most of all, true. Many blessings on your ministry

  • http://www.lindahudsonwriting.net Jon Spangler

    I love the way you tied together shame, charcoal smoke, the Kyrie, Saul, and Easter. “To whom shall we go” except Jesus and Mercy, indeed?

    How is your friend the bishop doing five years later?

  • http://www.mjarts.com Marty Jones

    thank you.

  • Bruce O. Boston

    Nadia, I am blessed every week by your message. You are among the most insightful and penetrating interpreters of the Bible preaching anywhere today, and I give thanks for your ministry, your insights, and your gifts of expression, which are as exquisite as they are awesome. What I find so important to me is your ability to share how you have been convicted by the Word, and your courage in letting us see that. Your instinct for the points of connection between you and your hearers is unerring, and I love listening to you — not always comfortable in the afterglow, but always saying “Yes.” Thank you so much.
    –Bruce Boston

    • http://www.sarcasticlutheran.com Nadia Bolz Weber

      Those are lovely things to say to a preacher, Bruce. May God make me worthy of them. nbw

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  • Mary

    Nadia – you’re not the only one who despises that liturgy setting. “Up With People” – you nailed it. (And I’m old enough to remember that group!)

    Now, Delta blues for the Kyrie – THAT would work. Any blues, really.

  • Kathy

    Thank you so much for this sermon…your words are a great help to those of us who grieve the present day situation you describe–yes, enough tragedy and loss to go around more than once.

  • Kimberley Wight

    I was introduced to you via video clip during sermon ths last sunday. I am grateful god brought your words into my life. I am recovering alkie,a past that makes me sick w guilt. However, the lord saved me forgave me. Praise be to God. May the lord keep and bless you and yr ministry. Kimber

  • Lynn Phillips-Gaines

    THank you, Thank you, Thank you! Lord have Mercy!. Last night I was in a hotel room and I was very angry about a slight, and I listened to this sermon and it brought me back to grace and to an expansive God. It helped me to focus back on my call to serve those”under resourced” commonly know as those in poverty. I hope to meet you one day.

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  • El_Tigre_Loco

    So, what’s new? If you don’t like the way it sounds in Greek, say it in English, but to despise it? I think not.