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I am quite certain that every pastor, minister, priest, imam, rabbi, preacher, teacher… etc… has experienced this. It is terrifying to question your beliefs. It’s doubly so when you are expected to teach those questioned beliefs.

For some it is episodic. For others it is chronic.

Like I tweeted last night:

Asking yourself “Do I still really believe?” is one of the most daring, courageous and necessary questions you can ask yourself.


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About David Hayward

David Hayward runs the blog nakedpastor as a graffiti artist on the walls of religion where he critiques religion… specifically Christianity and the church. He also runs the online community The Lasting Supper where people can help themselves discover, explore and live in spiritual freedom.

  • John Squires

    Yes, it is terrifying, no doubt about that. But is preaching necessarily to be completely understood as teaching? or can it include dimensions such as questioning, probing, exploring? If we testify to our doubts and uncertainties, can’t that have its own power of authenticity and demonstrate how faith/trust actually works?

  • Connie

    I know I still believe. My “believer” won’t stop working. What I believe, though, is still up for grabs. Jury’s still out I that, I’m afraid.

  • nakedpastor

    I love how you put that Connie… my “believer” won’t stop working. i get that.

  • Beth

    I’m with John and Connie…now if I can just be vulnerable and admit that to others!

  • Gary

    My pastoring days were over many years before I began to have doubts but I can totally relate to this from a teaching standpoint. I spent a good number of years trying to modify my teaching and find a balance between what I really believed and what would be acceptable to the fundamental church I was in. Finally the disconnect was so great I simply felt it was time to leave…but it was a long personal struggle leading up to it.

  • Brianmpei

    I’ve just found that sharing my doubts liberates the community of which I am a part. I’m sometimes met by friends who feel they have answers for my questions but no one insists I pretend I don’t have doubts.