by Living Liminal cross posted from her blog Living Liminal
We’ve reached a milestone.
It’s been one and a half years since my husband and I decided we couldn’t take it any more.
18 months since we officially said, “No More!”
No more pain. No more abuse.
And we walked away from life as we’d known it.
Away from ‘going to church’. Away from ‘doing’ church. Away from an institution that used to mean safety, security, religious observances – but had come to represent wounding and rejection and judgment and grief and fear and heartbreak and loss.
We started a journey into the unknown.
And it’s been hard and lonely at times, but I’m so glad we did.
It’s not that we have all the answers now. In fact far from it. We seem to have less certainty than we’ve ever had before. But we’re finding peace in that.
We’ve questioned many of the things we were taught to believe and found them lacking. We’ve discarded the man-made traditions and committed ourselves to following the Spirit – wherever that might lead. We’ve cast off the need to perform or comply with other people’s expectations. We’ve claimed our freedom.
We chose the Red Pill, and just like Neo, we woke up to a world we’d never known before.
And it’s scary and disorienting at times. But we’re learning to live in it.
We’ve found that God will not fit in a box – not even a ‘church-shaped’ box. That his love is better and greater and deeper than we’d ever known. That Jesus’s rebukes were for the religious leaders who, convinced of their own righteousness, used their religion to hurt people. That the Spirit, like the wind, cannot be controlled and will not be constrained.
We are certainly experiencing a new and different life. But definitely not as we knew it!
Living Liminal lives in Australia with her husband and three sons, and she is learning to thrive in the liminal space her life has become.