Survivors Guilt

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by Lana Hope cross posted from her blog Wide Open Ground originally posted June 2013Daily I tremble in memory of friends left behind. As a Daughter of Patriarchy and fundamentalism, I am left to remember all the faces of those who didn’t make it out. I suffer from survivors guilt.  I don’t suffer from the spiritual abuse so much. I can accept that I will always be a foreigner in my own land. But gosh I hurt that so many friends have been left behind.This happened two days ago when I thought about my best friend from childhood (particularly high school), and I remembered that I was not invited to her wedding (she invited everyone else in childhood). It hurts not just that my friend rej … [Read more...]

Journal Entry, April 1, 2010

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by Ellen cross posted from her blog When Church HurtsIf you’ve ever wondered what goes on inside the head of a person who is mired in spiritual abuse, this is an example. It is an entry from the journal that I would take to church and write in during services. This entry is from Maundy Thursday, April 1, 2010. I sat in the very back pew and observed the service. I could not participate. As you will see, I was convinced that God had completely rejected me because of the way the leadership had been treating me for about a decade. This journal entry documents the level to which spiritual abuse had taken me. As the leaders and congregation moved through the service, this is what I wrote: … [Read more...]

Update to Fundraiser

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by Angel - Vyckie Garrison's eldest daughter Yesterday, I was hyper-aware of all the ways I live that I have my mom to thank for. As I pass another car, I hear my mom reminding me should see both headlights of the vehicle in my rear view mirror before I pull into their lane. I heard the old song, "Flowers on the Wall", … [Read more...]

So I Was Spiritually Abused, What Next?: Bible Verses Atheists Love

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by NLQ Founder Vyckie GarrisonValerie Tarico recently asked me to pick a bible verse that I actually like for this article, "Bible Verses That Atheists Love" which she wrote for AlterNet. I'm honored to be included with a bunch of awesome fellow skeptics; many of whom also chose Ecclesiastes (✿◠‿◠)My response was too long and had to be edited for the article. For my friends, here's the unedited version:And also that every man should eat and drink, and enjoy the good of all his labour, it is the gift of God. --Ecclesiastes 3:13 … [Read more...]


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