Old Clothes

by caluluA couple of days ago I got a good lesson in the distance I’ve traveled since I left the fundamentalist Quiverful church I attended for many years. As I was dressing for the day I pulled out a skirt and blouse I’d worn many times back in those church going days. I’d loved that skirt, soft blue and white corduroy that fell in graceful folds almost to my ankles and the accompanying fuzzy blue sweater. I couldn’t remember why I’d not worn them for ages, at least until I’d donned both garments.Once I looked into the mirror I knew why, there was no going back to immure my body like it was a ticking time bomb or nuclear waste in yards of fabric. Wearing what essentially was a Hefty b … [Read more...]

Anything you can do, I can do in a skirt!

by SierraYoung women following the patriarchal doctrine of William Branham’s “Message of the Hour” liked to refer to themselves as the “skirt girls.” Skirts and dresses were the only attire sufficiently modest and feminine for young ladies raised in the shadow of the prophet. Hemlines had to fall below the knees – and stay below them when the wearer was sitting down. Hair often besieged the knees from above, making them a kind of modesty battleground that should never, ever catch a gleam of daylight. Tanned knees were the mark of a harlot. As a little girl, I didn’t mind it much. I was convinced that my wrinkly knees were unsightly and ought to be hidden in the first place. What was I com … [Read more...]

We don't want to bring attention to ourselves…..

by ErikaMuch of the wardrobe from my family's days in ultra-conservatism makes me shudder to think back on them. Not the funky patterns and bright colors. Those I loved. Those are the clothes that enabled me to keep my personality and inside light alive.I'm talking about the oversized jumpers, the big collared button-down blouses, the vests that we wore over dresses and jumpers to further hide any curves, the suspenders and long sleeved, button-down men's shirts, the plaid, the calico, the florals, the patterns that looked like draperies....I'm sure you know what I'm talking about.I know that my mother and sister sewed those clothes with nothing but good intentions and love, but when … [Read more...]

My Secret Desires

Lust Behind the Modest Denim Curtain by Arietty During my most deepest, holiest, quivering before God years I would sometimes find my Christian Womanhood alarmingly infiltrated by admirations that were NOT the admirations of a woman whose price was "above rubies". These admirations stood in stark contrast to my floral blouses and the verses in cross stitch I had displayed on the walls of my home and to the Christian women whose example I wished to emulate. I knew they were wrong, dubious at best and not something I would ever admit to. They were like chocolates hidden in the underwear drawer of a dieter. I knew they were there and I had no intention of throwing them away and every now … [Read more...]

Someone was trying to control every aspect of my life … including my clothes

by ErikaMe and my youngest brother, 1991 After being made to quit the basketball team and the FHA group, I was trying to find any way that I possibly could to stay close to my friends. I called them when I could, I would wait outside on my porch after school ended so that I could talk to my classmates that lived on my street as they walked home each afternoon, I would try to get down to the school or a friend's house when the chance came available. In the meantime, my parents were withdrawing us from as much as they could to be able to cut off as much outside influence and friendship as possible. I remember Mr. Thompson feeding my father the line, "Take away everything that is important to … [Read more...]

Something didn’t sit quite right with me …

by Erika The morning that I left for my missions trip Boot Camp. I'm pictured with my pastor and his wife.A newspaper story that was done before I left for my missions trip.When I left for Africa in the summer of 1991, I was excited about my trip and the things that I would see but I was also disappointed to know that I would be coming home to my sophomore year as a homeschooler. I was crushed by my parents' decision and begged them to let me stay in school. After all, I wasn't the one that wanted to be taken out and I wasn't the one that had the problems in school. My parents told me that it was all or nothing. If they were taking out one kid, they were taking us all out. If my 3 … [Read more...]

Freedom From Patriarchy

by ErikaHere in the US, we celebrated our nation's independence and freedom this past Saturday, the 4th of July. This particular holiday always makes me think of my own Independence Day.We had a BBQ with family and friends this past Saturday and while we were sitting inside to stay out of the rain, I was telling my friends about the jumper that my sister had made for herself back when she was 18. I had recently posted the picture of our family on my Facebook account and one of my friends asked, "Does your sister really have a cow on her jumper?"Yes, she did.In fact, she had the whole farm SCENE. The field, the red barn, the fruit trees, the cows, etc. My mom, sisters and I all … [Read more...]

NLQ FAQ: What is Quiverfull?

by Vyckie  Q: What is "Quiverfull?""Quiverfull" is a convenient, though I believe, somewhat unfortunate term which we're using at No Longer Quivering to describe a family lifestyle which is growing in popularity among evangelical Christians ~ particularly those who home educate their children.Quiverfull ~ is the idea that truly godly families will "trust the Lord" with their family planning. Children are viewed as unmitigated blessings ("As arrows in the hand of the mighty man, so are the children of ones youth, happy is the man who hath his quiver full of them") and as such, the couple is willing to have as many children as the Lord chooses to bless them with. Artificial or chemical … [Read more...]

Vyckie's Tour de Crap: Homeschool? Oh, I Could Never Do That!

This photo of my lovely children was taken on Mother's Day ~ 2005. Here's another article that I wrote back when I was "quivering." (‹(ô¿ô)›) The reason I wanted to share it here is simply to make the point that, for me (and I believe MANY quiverfullers), it was a "package deal." We started out homeschooling (and I'm not saying that ALL homeschoolers go down this exact same path ~ but we certainly weren't the only ones) ~ and everything else flowed from there.I remember that after years and years of getting deeper and deeper, I began to sort of dread opening a new issue of Home School Digest, "The Quarterly Journal for Serious Home Schoolers ." (This was my favorite magazine ~ I often repri … [Read more...]