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Note: this post was prompted by posts made by my friend Beth (On Fibromyalgia and Spiritual Emergency, over on PaganSquare) and Heather (Let's Talk About Social Services, also over on PaganSquare).For those of you just tuning in, I have PTSD, which in my case manifests with depression and anxiety.  I have been on an antidepressant as of March, and an anti-anxiety med as of May.This is not my first go-round with medication.  I was diagnosed in 2002 and began a round of "treatment" which di … [Read more...]

Did I ask you?

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Earlier this week I made a post called "The power of love" where I talked about the way D (my primary spirit) has blessed my life, and the problematic things that some folks in the pagan community say to people like me, most particularly the sentiment that involvement with a non-corporeal entity is delusional.This is not just a prime example of the casual ableism that goes unchecked in the pagan community, making an unsafe space for those of us with mental illness (because it implies that … [Read more...]

To Beat Depression, Honor Your Victories

At the moment when I felt like I made it, I realized there are four facits of my life that could be called magical, not just my path as a Pagan. First I guess I should clarify what I mean when I say I felt like I made it. My personal blog, the Crimson Crescent at www.feministelemental.wordpress.com was promoted by fellow SOA contributor Nornoriel, for which I am very thankful. This occured after I wrote my most recent … [Read more...]

Spirit-work and self-care

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I am a spirit-worker - my life is not my own, but lived in full-time service to the Powers... in my specific case, the Vanir.  (I have other intensive relationships with entities outside this pantheon, but I would not define them as service-oriented.)  I have been dismembered, killed, and reborn in my astral body, with corresponding energetic and psychological changes; I have had my life blown apart and re-assembled in the way the Powers think it ought to be, with nothing getting in the way of m … [Read more...]

Drawing Strength from Nature: by CJ Blackwood

This is the last piece of the three-part collaborative series by the Staff of Asclepius contributors.One day, six months after making the choice to follow an eclectic Wiccan path, I found myself standing outside as a storm rolled in. There was an odd thought running through my head. I knew I could reach up and pull energy from that storm. So I did!I instantly felt pretty incredible. It was like downing a large coke (hold the ice) without the jitters. Or like someone had just walked up … [Read more...]

One day at a time

Two weeks ago, I almost relapsed.The last time I self-injured was in February.  I have been self-injuring since I was a teenager.  It's a common behavior in people with borderline personality disorder (which is one of my diagnoses).While I haven't self-injured since the end of February, I've had urges to do so.  Being totally honest with the audience here, I usually get urges at least once a week.  I know people who have been self-injury-free for years who still occasionally get urg … [Read more...]


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