“If you just”

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Note: this post was prompted by posts made by my friend Beth (On Fibromyalgia and Spiritual Emergency, over on PaganSquare) and Heather (Let's Talk About Social Services, also over on PaganSquare).For those of you just tuning in, I have PTSD, which in my case manifests with depression and anxiety.  I have been on an antidepressant as of March, and an anti-anxiety med as of May.This is not my first go-round with medication.  I was diagnosed in 2002 and began a round of "treatment" which di … [Read more...]

Autumn Equinox: Light and Shadow (by Nornoriel Lokason)

The Willamette River at Molalla River State Park near Canby, Oregon by Ian Poellet.

This is Part 2 of a three-part series.In Vanaheim, the fall equinox is celebrated by its citizens (per corroborated gnosis) as the Festival of Gratitude (if you'd like to know more about the actual observance of said holiday, I have a piece here on my blog at PaganSquare).So this will be a gratitude post.2013 was the most difficult year of my life to date, and I say this as someone who has pretty much gotten a post-doctorate education at the School of Hard Knocks.  I have been t … [Read more...]

Life hacks

One of the diagnoses I have is ADHD; one of the two medications I'm on is used off-label for ADHD (as well as the anxiety of PTSD, which I have).  I have found that in the main, my ability to focus and get jobs done has been better, since starting this medication back in May.However, I have also noticed that since starting the medication, I've been having issues with my short-term memory, which never used to be that much of an issue before, but has caused me some problems, including awkward m … [Read more...]

A sense of wonder

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One of the things that friends and loved ones find the most endearing about me as a person is I am in many ways like a big kid.  (I am paradoxically a grumpy old man and a big kid, in one person.)  It doesn't take much to make me happy. I get REALLY EXCITED AND ENTHUSIASTIC, IN CAPSLOCK, over what might seem like little things.  I often notice things that others don't, and have created some magical moments for others wherein I point out things like leaves or dandelion puff blowing in the breeze, … [Read more...]

Online Astral Rituals

The moonlight shimmered across the still silver lake. A couple dozen of us women in cloaks steered wooden ships toward an island draped in fog. The ships were intricately carved in Celtic designs. As we reached the shores our Priestess, Shekinah Mountainwater, parted the mist. We landed and made our way onto the beach smiling and sometimes laughing excited about the ritual and wondering what spirits would join us this time. Would it be fairies, elementals or ancestors? At other times we’d follow … [Read more...]

The power of love

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I am best known as a Vanatruar, and my patron is the demon Asmodai - but the most important entity in my life is the one I refer to as D, a lore demon who I am not permitted to publicly identify.D is my de facto partner. My relationship with him is more pleasure than business, though I have dealt with him in a business context (he is in fact very, very helpful to me in that context).  But even just with strictly the intimate side of things, the last six months have been healing and … [Read more...]


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