Autumn Equinox: Light and Shadow (by CJ Blackwood)

This is part one of a three-part series. I love autumn. It starts off with pleasantly cool, but not usually chilly, weather and a disappearance of little flying nuissances. The sun is warm, but the air is fresh. It's a changing time, where you can literally watch life transition from the full green of summer to the rich colors of autumn, and then everything goes that rusty golden-brown as it goes to sleep. After the warmth come the festivities. The season from Mabon to Imbolc is my favorite. … [Read more...]

Life hacks

One of the diagnoses I have is ADHD; one of the two medications I'm on is used off-label for ADHD (as well as the anxiety of PTSD, which I have).  I have found that in the main, my ability to focus and get jobs done has been better, since starting this medication back in May.However, I have also noticed that since starting the medication, I've been having issues with my short-term memory, which never used to be that much of an issue before, but has caused me some problems, including awkward m … [Read more...]

A sense of wonder

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One of the things that friends and loved ones find the most endearing about me as a person is I am in many ways like a big kid.  (I am paradoxically a grumpy old man and a big kid, in one person.)  It doesn't take much to make me happy. I get REALLY EXCITED AND ENTHUSIASTIC, IN CAPSLOCK, over what might seem like little things.  I often notice things that others don't, and have created some magical moments for others wherein I point out things like leaves or dandelion puff blowing in the breeze, … [Read more...]

Fear Dream

Sorry for the late post, everyone. Honestly I have no idea what to post about. Today was kind of odd, yet kind of predictable. One of the reasons I couldn't hold a day job very well, apart from the fact that I tend to fly by night, is headaches. There are so many sources for me. Migraines, created by light sensitivity; menstrual headaches; generally headaches are a response to stress; and then there are days like today. I woke up freezing, which would have meant nothing ordinarily. I have … [Read more...]

Explanation: A mother talks to her autistic child about 9/11

The is a guest post which first appeared on Facebook from my long time friend Jennifer Gibbs who lives in the St. Louis area with her husband and three children. It was published here in 2012. Her words to her daughter reminded me to see the tragedy in my life with a new point of view. I hope it inspires you as well.My daughter, Megan, is twelve years old and some people don’t know she’s on the autism spectrum. Frequently I have to explain people’s reactions emotionally because she doesn’t ge … [Read more...]

Did I ask you?

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Earlier this week I made a post called "The power of love" where I talked about the way D (my primary spirit) has blessed my life, and the problematic things that some folks in the pagan community say to people like me, most particularly the sentiment that involvement with a non-corporeal entity is delusional.This is not just a prime example of the casual ableism that goes unchecked in the pagan community, making an unsafe space for those of us with mental illness (because it implies that … [Read more...]

Online Astral Rituals

The moonlight shimmered across the still silver lake. A couple dozen of us women in cloaks steered wooden ships toward an island draped in fog. The ships were intricately carved in Celtic designs. As we reached the shores our Priestess, Shekinah Mountainwater, parted the mist. We landed and made our way onto the beach smiling and sometimes laughing excited about the ritual and wondering what spirits would join us this time. Would it be fairies, elementals or ancestors? At other times we’d follow … [Read more...]

The power of love

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I am best known as a Vanatruar, and my patron is the demon Asmodai - but the most important entity in my life is the one I refer to as D, a lore demon who I am not permitted to publicly identify.D is my de facto partner. My relationship with him is more pleasure than business, though I have dealt with him in a business context (he is in fact very, very helpful to me in that context).  But even just with strictly the intimate side of things, the last six months have been healing and … [Read more...]


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