Sleeping Beauty

I have this problem that when I become stressed out or depressed I get narcoleptic. All I want to do is sleep instead of doing things around the house or facing what it is that bothers me. It’s just too easy to lay down, close my eyes and drift off into another reality. This doesn’t solve anything though and I end up in a circle of anxiety and I chastise myself. Why didn’t you do the dishes? Why didn’t you do that load of laundry? Why didn’t you write something? I forget that I need to move aroun … [Read more...]

On Faith

Lately I’ve been praying a lot to Gaia. These are small prayers that will get me through the day, the hour and the next minute. Since mid-September I’ve been working as a customer service representative with a pharmaceutical company. I answer calls at home. We only had four days of training and each day brings new updates to our scattered handwritten and printed notes. At first I honestly didn’t think I could make it through this job that Vocational Rehabilitation found for me. I suffer from anxi … [Read more...]

Drawing Strength from Nature: by CJ Blackwood

This is the last piece of the three-part collaborative series by the Staff of Asclepius contributors.One day, six months after making the choice to follow an eclectic Wiccan path, I found myself standing outside as a storm rolled in. There was an odd thought running through my head. I knew I could reach up and pull energy from that storm. So I did!I instantly felt pretty incredible. It was like downing a large coke (hold the ice) without the jitters. Or like someone had just walked up … [Read more...]

The Long Dark Contemplation of My Soul Part 1

In ”Hestia at Work and Home”, I wrote about my new job. Unfortunately it lasted only two and a half months before I had a breakdown. A couple of cooks quit and my hours increased to almost full time. Because of my PTSD and epilepsy I can only handle part time work, which isn’t easy to find.It’s scary when you aren’t yourself. When this demented feeling takes over, filling you with pain and sorrow. Something in your mind fights the feeling that you aren't safe and you're going to die. At times … [Read more...]

The tricky mind and body connection.

I recently had a scary incident where my antibiotics interfered with my medication and I spiraled into a unhealthy mental state.Even though I had sever bronchitis I was feeling great. I was so happy to be alive and in love with my husband and pets. The little girl I had dreamed of a year ago was finally born to my sister. I sat on the couch wrapped up in my favorite comforter drinking oloong tea and doing word search puzzles. My soul was amazed by all of the wonderful colors and sounds in … [Read more...]

Blogging Against Disablism

Diary of a Goldfish blog hosted a Blogging Against Disablism Day. I've been reading through the blogs that participated and found that I can relate to many of the writer's experiences.College and Disability blog "Why are so many people with disabilities unemployed?"The author notes that according to the US Department of Labor 15.2% of people with disabilities are unemployed and 8.1% of people without disabilities are unemployed. They write about how there are three main things making it … [Read more...]


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