Tough love

Asmodai, art by Nornoriel Lokason (2014).

As mentioned in my post "The dark side", my patron is Asmodai, better known as Asmodeus... a demon.  He is more well known as a demon of lust, but I don't work with him in this capacity - I work with him as The Judge, the pillar of severity.The name Asmodai derives from the Avestan language aēšma-daēva. Asmodai may probably have his origins as the Zoroastrian demon of wrath, Aeshma (“aeshma” literally means “wrath”). He is considered an entity who deals out revenge, most famously to King Solo … [Read more...]

“The dark side”

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While I am best known as one of the forefathers of the Vanatru movement and one of the leading resources on the Vanir and Vanatru... the Vanir are not the sole entities in my life.  I am also a demonolater; my patron is Asmodai, the demon of wrath.  The entity most important to me is one I refer to as D (a lore demon who I'm not allowed to publicly identify).This has surprised people.  "You don't look like a Satanist!" 1. I'm not a Satanist.  2. What does a Satanist look like?  They don't all … [Read more...]

Spirit-work and self-care

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I am a spirit-worker - my life is not my own, but lived in full-time service to the Powers... in my specific case, the Vanir.  (I have other intensive relationships with entities outside this pantheon, but I would not define them as service-oriented.)  I have been dismembered, killed, and reborn in my astral body, with corresponding energetic and psychological changes; I have had my life blown apart and re-assembled in the way the Powers think it ought to be, with nothing getting in the way of m … [Read more...]

Labyrinth

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One of the things that drew me to the story of Myrddin Emrys as told in The Crystal Cave by Mary Stewart was, well, the crystal cave. I had this thing for caves as long as I could remember. Could not explain why, I just did. At least some of the appeal of Fraggle Rock to me, as a kid, was that the Fraggles all lived in a cave together. I liked to “play cave” when I was a kid and make caves out of boxes, blankets, etc. I liked hanging out in hollowed-out tree caves and under fallen trees that mad … [Read more...]

Drawing Strength from Nature: by CJ Blackwood

This is the last piece of the three-part collaborative series by the Staff of Asclepius contributors.One day, six months after making the choice to follow an eclectic Wiccan path, I found myself standing outside as a storm rolled in. There was an odd thought running through my head. I knew I could reach up and pull energy from that storm. So I did!I instantly felt pretty incredible. It was like downing a large coke (hold the ice) without the jitters. Or like someone had just walked up … [Read more...]

Drawing strength from nature: by Nornoriel Lokason

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This is the second piece of the three-part collaborative series by Staff of Asclepius contributors.The element that I most have an affinity for, in terms of magical and energy work, is water.  I have only ever lived in coastal states.  I could not live too far inland or someplace like the Midwest because I would feel "landlocked".I am fortunate to live within a reasonable driving distance of the Oregon coast, where I have made a few trips with friends of mine, including a couple of p … [Read more...]

Call for submissions: a devotional to Njord

(I was given permission by Masery to post this here and get the word out, thank you.)Of all of the devotionals on the market for different gods and goddesses of the Northern tradition, I have yet to see one specifically dedicated exclusively to Njord, the sea god of the Vanir... a god particularly close to my heart, who has long been dear to me.  His serenity and his wisdom, his generosity, kindness, and gentle humor, have blessed my life over the years.  He has given me and my family gifts o … [Read more...]

One day at a time

Two weeks ago, I almost relapsed.The last time I self-injured was in February.  I have been self-injuring since I was a teenager.  It's a common behavior in people with borderline personality disorder (which is one of my diagnoses).While I haven't self-injured since the end of February, I've had urges to do so.  Being totally honest with the audience here, I usually get urges at least once a week.  I know people who have been self-injury-free for years who still occasionally get urg … [Read more...]


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