Life hacks

One of the diagnoses I have is ADHD; one of the two medications I'm on is used off-label for ADHD (as well as the anxiety of PTSD, which I have).  I have found that in the main, my ability to focus and get jobs done has been better, since starting this medication back in May.However, I have also noticed that since starting the medication, I've been having issues with my short-term memory, which never used to be that much of an issue before, but has caused me some problems, including awkward m … [Read more...]

A sense of wonder

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One of the things that friends and loved ones find the most endearing about me as a person is I am in many ways like a big kid.  (I am paradoxically a grumpy old man and a big kid, in one person.)  It doesn't take much to make me happy. I get REALLY EXCITED AND ENTHUSIASTIC, IN CAPSLOCK, over what might seem like little things.  I often notice things that others don't, and have created some magical moments for others wherein I point out things like leaves or dandelion puff blowing in the breeze, … [Read more...]

Did I ask you?

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Earlier this week I made a post called "The power of love" where I talked about the way D (my primary spirit) has blessed my life, and the problematic things that some folks in the pagan community say to people like me, most particularly the sentiment that involvement with a non-corporeal entity is delusional.This is not just a prime example of the casual ableism that goes unchecked in the pagan community, making an unsafe space for those of us with mental illness (because it implies that … [Read more...]

Tough love

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As mentioned in my post "The dark side", my patron is Asmodai, better known as Asmodeus... a demon.  He is more well known as a demon of lust, but I don't work with him in this capacity - I work with him as The Judge, the pillar of severity.The name Asmodai derives from the Avestan language aēšma-daēva. Asmodai may probably have his origins as the Zoroastrian demon of wrath, Aeshma (“aeshma” literally means “wrath”). He is considered an entity who deals out revenge, most famously to King Solo … [Read more...]

“The dark side”

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While I am best known as one of the forefathers of the Vanatru movement and one of the leading resources on the Vanir and Vanatru... the Vanir are not the sole entities in my life.  I am also a demonolater; my patron is Asmodai, the demon of wrath.  The entity most important to me is one I refer to as D (a lore demon who I'm not allowed to publicly identify).This has surprised people.  "You don't look like a Satanist!" 1. I'm not a Satanist.  2. What does a Satanist look like?  They don't all … [Read more...]

To Beat Depression, Honor Your Victories

At the moment when I felt like I made it, I realized there are four facits of my life that could be called magical, not just my path as a Pagan. First I guess I should clarify what I mean when I say I felt like I made it. My personal blog, the Crimson Crescent at www.feministelemental.wordpress.com was promoted by fellow SOA contributor Nornoriel, for which I am very thankful. This occured after I wrote my most recent … [Read more...]

Spirit-work and self-care

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I am a spirit-worker - my life is not my own, but lived in full-time service to the Powers... in my specific case, the Vanir.  (I have other intensive relationships with entities outside this pantheon, but I would not define them as service-oriented.)  I have been dismembered, killed, and reborn in my astral body, with corresponding energetic and psychological changes; I have had my life blown apart and re-assembled in the way the Powers think it ought to be, with nothing getting in the way of m … [Read more...]

Labyrinth

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One of the things that drew me to the story of Myrddin Emrys as told in The Crystal Cave by Mary Stewart was, well, the crystal cave. I had this thing for caves as long as I could remember. Could not explain why, I just did. At least some of the appeal of Fraggle Rock to me, as a kid, was that the Fraggles all lived in a cave together. I liked to “play cave” when I was a kid and make caves out of boxes, blankets, etc. I liked hanging out in hollowed-out tree caves and under fallen trees that mad … [Read more...]


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