I confess that I’ve begun hitting snooze too often on my 5:30am wake up. I started this schedule in mid-March and until now I have successfully limited myself to one snooze, if any. Last week of school, though… not good. I think I’m at that point in forming a new habit where the novelty is gone, & I’ve begun to take for granted all the benefits of an early wakeup (even though there are so many). It’s a dangerous time in which the new habit can easily fall away. If I’m going to stick with it, I think it might take some serious cognitive restructuring–a new Pavlovian response to the sound of my alarm. Anyone want to take bets on whether or not I can do it?
I confess that my kids have gone to spend the week with the grandparents. Kristin and I spent our first free day working in the yard, going to a movie (Chef–it was a total feel good film), and binge watching Season 2 of The Vikings. We are almost done.
I confess that I am steadily making progress in fighting back the chaos threatening to overtake my yard and garage. Yesterday’s installment was a serious battle with an overgrown boxwood hedge. I’ve been ignoring these bushes for about two years & they have been enjoying their freedom. Since the hedge is situated just below the deck on the back of our house, trimming & cleaning out underneath it also provided me with a snapshot of what our boys think is acceptable to chuck over the side of the deck. Clearly we’ve got some instruction to do there. Next up is another full pickup load of mulch and some weed control.
I confess that I’m listening to the lectures from one of the “Great Courses” called “Analysis and Critique: How to Engage and Write About Anything.” I have no formal training as a writer, so I’m always a little suspicious of my own work. I’m learning that I instinctively do a few things right: I give a lot of weight to the way writing sounds poetically. I love good words & constantly attempt to expand my vocabulary. I read a lot, and try to read good writers. I do a ton of revisions on my projects. I write every day. I return to things I’ve already written & published in order to reread them with a critical eye and the benefit of some emotional distance. I Try to respect the rules of grammar, even as I am breaking them. I am constantly working with editors who rip my writing to shreds & force me to grow. In that sense this course has been encouraging. However, the course is also challenging me, teaching me that I make a lot of rookie mistakes. I’m learning that I have a lot of work to do in terms of my technical writing skills. A few things I’m doing wrong are: I do not know grammar well enough. I need to improve my basic sentence structure. I am not intentional enough about constructing an audience before I write. I have not done enough work analyzing other people’s writing. I need to get better at anticipating objections to my arguments and answering them within the argument itself. Mostly, I’m become more aware that I need to better understand the way I write–the things I do by instinct (good or bad). Just understanding and naming what I’m doing will help me to refine those skills, and then to expand/refine them.
Okay friends, that’s my confession for this Monday. Space for your confession has been provided in the comments section below… have at it!