Why Do I Write All These Sad Songs?

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“What came first: the music or the misery?” – Nick Hornby

 

I cut my vocational teeth as a musician, part of the band Satellite Soul who was signed to Ardent/Forefront. Where label-mates like Skillet, DC Talk, and Newsboys were exceedingly successful, my band was always critically acclaimed but commercially unsuccessful. I’ve always wondered why.

A few weeks ago I was listening to Malcolm Gladwell’s podcast, Revisionist History. The episode is called “The King of Tears.” In it Gladwell tells the story of Bobby Braddock, a legendary Nashville songwriter. Braddock wrote “He Stopped Loving Her Today” for George Jones. He wrote “D-I-V-O-R-C-E” for Tammy Wynette. This guy is a legend, and he writes one incredibly sad song after another.

Gladwell says that we draw lots of lines as we categorize music, usually between genres. We know the line between pop and rock, country and blues, hip-hop and R&B, but the one line we never talk about is the line between sad and happy. It’s the sad song line.

Gladwell inspired me to look back through the songs I’ve written over the years, and it hit me. I write with both feet firmly planted to the left of the sad song line. I mean, that’s what I do.

What’s more, the happy songs I write–I mean this honestly–are mostly written to try and get you guys to like me and like my music. The sad songs? Those I write just for me.

For example: I once wrote a song about how if my wife ever died, I’d probably just kill myself (Bury Me). It’s a country song–obviously.

The highest charting song my band ever recorded was called Say I Am. It topped out at #3. The hook is “I’m not as good as I say I am.” The song is upbeat, but the words are just, well, sad.

The saddest Album I’ve made is Straight Back to Kansas–an alt-country record that merely proves Gladwell’s rule that country music is really the only genre comfortable with deep sadness.  Come and Ruin Me Again, Song for a Lonely Person, Saddest Happy Ending–they’re all terribly sad songs. And sadness is my jam:

  • Love is All We Own: Inspired by the time, thirty years earlier, when my house burned down–I was 5 years old.
  • Interstate Travel: A song about how lonely it is on the road, traveling around without your family. “Another mile farther another exit to a town. Where folks are really living not just traveling around.”
  • Always the Same: Musically this is a sad-song high water mark. “Everything around me it is passing away; dust to dust till nothing will remain.”
  • Pieces: a song about how after all these years of following Jesus I still feel lost. “Sure I was lost but I didn’t know why; just living on feelings and wandering by; still looking for the pieces, looking for the puzzle, how your life fits in mine.”
  • Broken Again: “Broken again, My life is wading through the shattered past, broken glass. Broken again, and I’m broken again.”

Almost Ready is about a married couple who “came to love, but fought instead.” It imagines the moment they pass the point of no return and head for a breakup. What stops them from reaching toward one another instead of holding back in that moment? That moment fascinates me. “We were flying, we were almost ready, we were climbing out on a limb. We were crying, we were almost ready, till something pulled us back again.” And then maybe the saddest line I’ve ever written: “I can’t make you feel what you did before; And I can’t, I can’t stop the slamming door. A reaching finger to the door, a hand goes out, then to the floor.” That’s some messed up, really messed up stuff! And yet this is one of my favorite songs.

Can’t Find the Handle: is about sexual abuse, a topic that is very personal to me.

Ruin Me: “Cause it’s all beautiful, beautiful, pitiful, pitiful, it’s all gone.” Hemingway would be proud, you know?

I love sad songs. I write sad songs. And, truth be told, I simply don’t trust happy music, and that’s the rub.

If ever there was a genre built on being happy–even artificially so–then CCM is it. Contemporary Christian Music is the official forum of the saccharine. Even rock music as a genre, as Gladwell explains, really doesn’t have a lot of room for sad songs, and I like sad songs. I write sad songs. No wonder this never really worked.

So, if you like sad songs too. Feel free to indulge in a little Satellite Soul today. Here’s my Satellite Soul, Sad Song Playlist. You can go over to Youtube and listen to each of them for free:

Wash

Pieces

Interstate Travel

Set me Free

Always the Same

Single Moment

Broken Again

Poor Reflection

These Fields

Love is All We Own

Song for a Lonely Person

Can’t Find the Handle

Almost Ready

Gone

Saddest Happy Ending

Ruin Me

Bury Me

It’s You

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  • http://www.notnerd.com David Baehler

    What about “Lonely Sailor,” my all-time favorite song of yours? So melancholy and so descriptive.

    • Tim_Suttle

      Holy Cow… I forgot about that song. I don’t have a copy of that old cassette that I can listen to, so some of that stuff has slipped my mind. Thank you David!

  • Dayne Curtis Burns

    Your songs connected with me in my struggles of living as Christian in a fallen world. Like with the gospel, you typically seemed to remind us of God’s gift of grace for his wondering people.

  • Bobby Shaw

    Tim, this post may be about sad songs, but it made me very happy! I miss Satellite Soul, so now I must break out the CD’s. :) Great list and you nailed several of my favorite SS songs; Can’t Find The Handle, Love Is All We Own, and Interstate Travel (I especially loved the video backdrop of this song that played one time when I saw you guys in concert!) I would also add Indiana to this list. Love that song about Rich, especially as we near 20 years of his passing.

  • Scott

    Great post! Love the list and I’m still a fan of Equal to the Fall, but the version from the first CD. Think it’s the White Album. I’ve got it on my mp3 so it doesn’t list title or album. I chuckle a bit looking back on the time in my life when I was trying to become a Christian. The CCM scene, large evangelical community churches, and the belief that we had all the answers, faith was black and white. Satellite Soul was one of the first bands that spoke to me spiritually through music. My how my positions have changed theologically.
    I’ve always been a bit more melancholy than I’d like to admit and have always been drawn to sad songs. I still can remember being devastated listening to Fast Car by Tracy Chapman. It was the realization that the song expressed reality for so many. I still think it may be one of the saddest songs ever.
    Sometimes I actually seek out emotionally draining songs as a catharsis. All I need sometimes is the first few notes and I’ll fall apart. It’s like an emotional purge, a detox from the ever growing toxicity that is American culture. Probably a bit too much information but your post resonated with me on a few levels. The trilogy of songs/videos by the Lumineers are what’s speaking to me right now. Basically anything that speaks to the human condition gets me going.