Eleven years ago next November, I was sitting in the cathedral at Fatima.
I was not praying. I was simply floating in the atmosphere of blessedness that pervades the place.
Without introduction, God opened up a sort of vision. I learned that I was going to be doing something very different in the future, that I had specific books that He wanted me to write.
That wasn’t all of it. But it’s the part that applies to what I’m telling you now.
Eleven years have passed. I have put off doing what God told me to do. That’s usual for me. Every time God has called me to do something big, I’ve delayed. Of all the Bible characters, I’m the most like Jonah. I run from these calls. But I’ve always eventually come around and done what He wanted.
I make me think of a horse, running off when you approach with the bridle, running around the pasture, wheeling and tossing it’s head at you, then stopping and walking back to nuzzle you, as if to say, “Ok, let’s do it.”
The bottom line is that I don’t want to die and go stand before God and have Him say “What part of ‘Write a book,’ don’t you understand?
I don’t think this is a go-to-hell deal. It’s more of a I-love-Jesus-and-I-want-to-please-Him deal. Everything God has ever asked me to do has ended up being a difficult gift and a blessing. I have no doubt that this will end up being the same.
I may write these books and no one will read them. They may moulder on my hard drive and go nowhere. That’s not the point.
The point is doing what He asked. That’s all. Just doing what I’m told.
I’ve found that I can’t muster the double decker concentration it takes to write books and blog both at once. I’m just not that elastic.
So, I’m taking a sabbatical from Public Catholic. The plan is, that I will be back in about 6 months. I may continue writing an occasional article elsewhere. I haven’t decided yet. If I do, I’ll post links to them here for you.
I am a bit torn about this decision. I feel almost as if I’m deserting my post in a time of peril. Christians have fallen so deeply into the thralldom over President Trump and I know that I am saying things that almost no one else is saying. I don’t know of any other pro life, Jesus loving, loyal-to-the-Pope, feminist woman with real political know-how who is out there saying that Trump is a false idol and what many Christians are doing is deserting Jesus to follow after him.
That needs to be said, and it needs to be said as many times as it takes to be heard.
But I am also aware that I am running out of time to do what God has asked. He never told me to blog. He told me to write these books.
In the time I’m gone I will be praying by name for each and every one of you who comment here regularly. If you want to talk to me, you can pm me on my Facebook page. I won’t be there much, but I should find your message in time. You are my dear virtual friends, and I care about you. Please follow Jesus and take care of yourselves while I’m away. If you can spare a prayer for me, I would deeply appreciate it.