Sometimes I yell at God.

I hesitate to write this post, since, with my previous posts about cutting, I am well on my way to becoming the stereotypical depressed blogger, and I prefer to refrain from things that are stereotypical. But, let's be real here. It's been a painful year. I've had to get up just to get kicked back down; I've had to turn around and face a past that's been lurking behind me my entire life; I've had to pull more than a few knives out of my back; I've had to rely on a mustard seed of faith to keep me … [Read more...]

The time Sarah Moon didn’t go to Anderson University

Once upon a time, I didn't go to Anderson University.My story begins in fall of 2009, in the little town of Winona Lake, Indiana, at a little school called Grace College. Grace College was a magical, sparkly, rainbow world of happy Christian goodness, where you walked onto campus and immediately felt like you were being hugged by Jesus. I might be exaggerating slightly, but I was happy there. It was my "comfort snuggie." Grace College was also home of an amazing School of Music which I was a … [Read more...]

By his stripes

Christ was pierced for my transgressions.  He was bruised for my sin...By his stripes I AM healed.How often I forget those words- those beautiful truths that I have had memorized since my AWANA Sparks days! It is time to remember:Christ's wounds cover my sin of lust. Satan comes to heaven with stones in his hand saying, "This woman commits adultery in her heart everyday. She would rather entertain these self-indulgent thoughts than wait on your perfect plan for sex. Someone must die for … [Read more...]

Another…

Disclaimer: I am sorry for my honesty about some controversial things, but I'm done with secrets and done with worrying about whether or not I should be so open about certain things. I went my whole life thinking I was the only one, and now that I know I'm not, I will do all I can to not let another person grow up feeling like "the only one."In between typing the very words you are reading, I must stop to wipe more blood off my arm- to erase another drop of shame from another possible scar … [Read more...]

Stuck…

There are many areas of life which the church tends to avoid. These issues are too controversial, too taboo, to awkward to discuss, and so we just pretend they don't exist. I believe the most commonly avoided of these topics is female masturbation. But only slightly less avoided is this: Never go in against a Si- wait...no...that's not the one. Ahem. Please Excuse my Princess bride obsession. Only slight less avoided is the area of self-injury.I've only heard one church sermon on self-injury. … [Read more...]

Love, in a word.

Today I was asked to define the word "love" in less than 25 words- to limit the definition of the single world’s greatest source of power, hope, and joy to just over two dozen words. I thought to myself, “Can such a thing be done? How does one even define love?  In slightly more than 25 words, I can attempt to describe the concept, but, define? Do I dare try to do such a definition justice?”I can describe how it looks - the sparkle in the eyes of every newlywed, the 90 year old couple at church … [Read more...]

Things I have (un)learned since high school:

In high school, people often told me that you go to high school to learn, and then you go to college to unlearn everything you learned in high school. Over the past two years, I have found that to be true. Some of the things I have (un)learned about life since graduating high school have completely turned my world upside-down. Though at many times during this process of "world rearrangement" I felt like I was going to fall off, life looks far sweeter from this new perspective than it ever did … [Read more...]


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