Having secrets makes me lonely

If you haven't ever visited http://www.postsecret.com/, you should do so. People mail postcards containing a secret to the site's creator. Every Sunday, new secrets are posted. I've never sent in any of my secrets but there is usually at least one secret each week that I can relate to. And sometimes being able to relate to something can be helpful. Take the past two weeks for example. I spent them fighting off depression. Nothing new. I've struggled with depression on and off for most of my … [Read more...]

3 Months, Thanks to You All!

I've written multiple, brutally honest (and hopefully not too "emo" sounding posts) about my self-injurous tendencies. In fact, one of my biggest reasons for starting a blog in the first place was the hope that I might clear away some of the shadows of ignorance and taboo surrounding the issue of self-injury. Many people do it. Few people talk about it. I believe that this is a problem. I am an extremely private person and don't always enjoy talking about such things in the most public place on … [Read more...]

By his stripes

Christ was pierced for my transgressions.  He was bruised for my sin... By his stripes I AM healed. How often I forget those words- those beautiful truths that I have had memorized since my AWANA Sparks days! It is time to remember: Christ's wounds cover my sin of lust. Satan comes to heaven with stones in his hand saying, "This woman commits adultery in her heart everyday. She would rather entertain these self-indulgent thoughts than wait on your perfect plan for sex. Someone must die for … [Read more...]

Another…

Disclaimer: I am sorry for my honesty about some controversial things, but I'm done with secrets and done with worrying about whether or not I should be so open about certain things. I went my whole life thinking I was the only one, and now that I know I'm not, I will do all I can to not let another person grow up feeling like "the only one." In between typing the very words you are reading, I must stop to wipe more blood off my arm- to erase another drop of shame from another possible scar … [Read more...]

Things I have (un)learned since high school:

In high school, people often told me that you go to high school to learn, and then you go to college to unlearn everything you learned in high school. Over the past two years, I have found that to be true. Some of the things I have (un)learned about life since graduating high school have completely turned my world upside-down. Though at many times during this process of "world rearrangement" I felt like I was going to fall off, life looks far sweeter from this new perspective than it ever did … [Read more...]