Never going back

Trigger Warning for AbuseI used to be in an abusive relationship.Once, I broke up with him, and he threatened to kill me for it.I was in his car, and I told him I didn't want to be with him anymore. He decided that if I wouldn't be with him, I  couldn't be with anyone. So he gave me the choice:Change my mind and stay with him, or he would crash the car into a telephone pole.I forced him to take me home that day by threatening him with a crowbar I found on the floor of his car. But … [Read more...]

Our Mother who art in heaven…

I'm trying this new thing where I don't just think of God as a man. Where I get this image out of my head that God is an old man that looks like Gandalf and has Morgan Freeman's voice. Where I let God out of this box of masculinity that God's been confined to.It's difficult. The images of God that we focus on in the Bible are all quite masculine. God is a Father. God is a King. God as a husband. God is He and Him. And to complicate matters, the preachers that have always told me about God were … [Read more...]

It’s not a religion, it’s a relationship?

When I was growing up, and people asked about my religion, I would parrot the phrase I'd heard from countless well-meaning pastors, Sunday school teachers, and friends. You know the one..."It's not a religion. It's a relationship."Then, there's the viral video that's been going around lately. I'm sure you've seen it making the rounds on Facebook, Twitter, and the Blogosphere:"Why I hate religion, but love Jesus."(side note: for an excellent response to this video, check out Elizabeth … [Read more...]

If the Bible had an F.A.Q. section…

Do you ever wish that the Bible had an F.A.Q. section?Or maybe it does, and I just haven't found it yet. Some Christians probably have--you know, the one's who are always saying, "The Bible clearly says that..." Yeah, those Christians must have found the F.A.Q. section.Because, let's be honest. The Bible is anything but clear.It's complicated, contradictory, and confusing.If the Bible had an F.A.Q. section, this is what I'd like to see in it:*What IS salvation?*Is there a hell? … [Read more...]

Good tidings of great joy

At yesterday's annual family Christmas gathering, my mom was asked to do the impossible: gather up my younger cousins and get them to sit still long enough for her to tell them the Christmas story. And, being the super woman that she is, she accomplished this task with seeming ease. She managed to capture the undivided attention of those eight rambunctious little boys and explain to them the beautiful message of Luke 2.She closed with: "When I see those beautiful, shining lights on the C … [Read more...]

Sarah vs. Evil Overlord Depression

I don't remember exactly when I first started suffering from depression. It was probably around junior high.Back then, depression would waltz in and out of my life. It would stick around for a few days or weeks, then it would leave, and it would forget to call, and good riddance!When I started dating my abusive ex-boyfriend at age 16, depression decided to crash on the futon for a few weeks. Those weeks turned into months......and years.The first two years involved many a prayer to … [Read more...]

Sometimes I believe Mark Driscoll.

I'm sorry my writing has been so sporadic lately. I've been busy with school and I've been fighting off a particularly bad bout of depression for a few weeks now. I'll try to write as often as I can, but I need the extra rest lately. Thanks for understanding! A couple of weeks ago, Mark Driscoll decided to preach a sermon telling people, "Some of you, God hates you," and I decided to forgive him for that. I wrote a post in which I decided that I was going to show God's love by loving Mark … [Read more...]

I saw love win today.

Today, as I was walking back from class, I noticed that my university's token street preacher was out doing his thing-- shouting at students, telling them that they were on their way to hell because of their sins of drunkenness, homosexuality, and fornication. You know the drill.I also noticed that he was accompanied by several people holding signs. I thought, "Great. He brought signs too this time?"But as I got closer, I realized that the sign-holders were students, and that the signs said … [Read more...]

Is the church a few steps behind?

I've never heard a pastor talk positively about the feminist movement.But when I read my Bible and see verses where Jesus tells Martha to get out of the kitchen and sit at his feet like a disciple, and when I see verses where Paul tells men in an oppressively patriarchal society to love, serve, and sacrifice for the "property" known as their wives, I can't deny it...Jesus is all for setting women free.Jesus is all about overthrowing society's power structures.I don't believe I should … [Read more...]

Two wrongs don’t make a right…or do they?

When children repay violence with violence, we say, "Two wrongs don't make a right."When governments repay violence with violence, we say, "Justice was served."I know most people reading this already have verses popping into their heads- maybe from Numbers 35, or even Romans 13. I know several people are already drumming up off-the-wall scenarios to question me with in the comments, and others are probably going to say something about Hitler.But let's put all these verses and scenarios … [Read more...]


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