Embodied Faith is a Faith I Can Live With

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Today, I'm guest posting at Suzannah Paul's blog on the topic of Embodied Faith. This is a really important topic to me--the idea that my faith matters to my body and to the experiences I have in my body has been so healing and freeing for me. So, I hope you'll check out my post and the other posts in Suzannah's series on Embodied Faith!Here's a quick preview: What theological insight can I gain from my body and from my bodily experiences?In my depression, I can meet with the suffering … [Read more...]

I’m giving up hate-reading for Lent!

I used to be a self-injurer. Once or twice a week for six years, I had a date with a razor-blade. Then, last October, I started taking medicine to treat my depression and eventually my self-injuring tendencies went away......sorta.I don't hurt myself physically anymore. In fact, it's rarely even a temptation now-a-days, which is a great accomplishment for me.But, sometimes I wonder if I have simply replaced my razor blade with a thing I've heard called hate-reading.A couple times a week … [Read more...]

Dear Razor Blade,

Dear Razor Blade,I'm sorry for what happened the other night, but the fact remains: I stopped cutting in November.The road got bumpy and the cutting bandwagon didn't have any seat-belts. I was emotionally vulnerable, and I know I shouldn't have brought you into my house the other night. But I did. What happened happened.I know I'll sound like a jerk for saying this (until I remember that you're an inanimate object and I'm only writing you a letter because I enjoy personification), but the … [Read more...]

Having secrets makes me lonely

If you haven't ever visited http://www.postsecret.com/, you should do so. People mail postcards containing a secret to the site's creator. Every Sunday, new secrets are posted.I've never sent in any of my secrets but there is usually at least one secret each week that I can relate to. And sometimes being able to relate to something can be helpful.Take the past two weeks for example. I spent them fighting off depression. Nothing new. I've struggled with depression on and off for most of my … [Read more...]

3 Months, Thanks to You All!

I've written multiple, brutally honest (and hopefully not too "emo" sounding posts) about my self-injurous tendencies. In fact, one of my biggest reasons for starting a blog in the first place was the hope that I might clear away some of the shadows of ignorance and taboo surrounding the issue of self-injury. Many people do it. Few people talk about it. I believe that this is a problem.I am an extremely private person and don't always enjoy talking about such things in the most public place on … [Read more...]

By his stripes

Christ was pierced for my transgressions.  He was bruised for my sin...By his stripes I AM healed.How often I forget those words- those beautiful truths that I have had memorized since my AWANA Sparks days! It is time to remember:Christ's wounds cover my sin of lust. Satan comes to heaven with stones in his hand saying, "This woman commits adultery in her heart everyday. She would rather entertain these self-indulgent thoughts than wait on your perfect plan for sex. Someone must die for … [Read more...]

Another…

Disclaimer: I am sorry for my honesty about some controversial things, but I'm done with secrets and done with worrying about whether or not I should be so open about certain things. I went my whole life thinking I was the only one, and now that I know I'm not, I will do all I can to not let another person grow up feeling like "the only one."In between typing the very words you are reading, I must stop to wipe more blood off my arm- to erase another drop of shame from another possible scar … [Read more...]

Stuck…

There are many areas of life which the church tends to avoid. These issues are too controversial, too taboo, to awkward to discuss, and so we just pretend they don't exist. I believe the most commonly avoided of these topics is female masturbation. But only slightly less avoided is this: Never go in against a Si- wait...no...that's not the one. Ahem. Please Excuse my Princess bride obsession. Only slight less avoided is the area of self-injury.I've only heard one church sermon on self-injury. … [Read more...]


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