In the seven years since my daughter was born, we’ve taken thousands of photographs. At various points along the way, we’ve even involved professionals. But it is rare that the professionals capture what I see when I look at her — the bright expression of delight and interest, the alternately mischievous and kind smile, the light in her eyes. More often than not, they catch her fake grin-for-the-camera, or their flash bounces off her glasses and the image misses her eyes, those globes of sparkling cut glass, or they get the moment just before the real Penny emerges. Most pictures by outsiders, no matter how professional, can’t capture her smile.
Because Penny has Down syndrome, I often feel as though her interactions with the outside world mirror those photographs. People wonder, “Has it hurt your marriage? I hear the divorce rate for special needs parents is really high.” Or they ask, “Is it hard on her brother and sister?” Or they say, “You were so brave to have more children.”
And just as I don’t know how to tell photographers the way to capture her smile, I don’t know how to tell the social bystanders the way to capture an accurate portrait of our family. Sometimes I argue, citing statistics that the divorce rate for families with children with Down syndrome is actually lower than the average population, or that siblings report pride and happiness with their brother or sister with Down syndrome. Sometimes, I shrug the comments off.
Continue reading Missing Out on Beautiful on The Huffington Post’s Parents Page.