It’s hard to find your place in life. It’s not always apparent just exactly where one fits. I certainly feel this as a seminary student, and I imagine students in other fields feel the same way. This post obviously follows on the heels of yesterday’s post, because finding one’s place in life is linked to humility. When you know who you are, you know how to speak. When you don’t know exactly who or where you are, you don’t how to speak. This can result in a form of confused pride.
I suppose that this is good for those of us who are students. It forces us to be careful, to be discerning, to think about our station in life and the way we present ourselves. After all, we’re not an established pastor, and thus we can’t really talk like one. We’re not an accomplished theologian, and so we can’t speak with the same confidence that a scholar can. We’re not even an experienced layman. We’re caught in the middle.
Yet though we’re caught, we have to strive to speak well and humbly. I see the need to strive for such a posture in my own life. I want to state ideas and discuss arguments, but I want to do so in a humble manner. Yet I’ve got just enough learning and training to become arrogant, if I allow sin to rule me. I’m in the middle, then. I know I’m not established in the ministry, but yet I’ve got solid training. I want to find my place, but my place seems to be nowhere sometimes. (Of course, I put myself in awkward positions sometimes, like when I speak too strongly about a certain matter. I believe I did so on the topic of women and contact sports, and for that I am most sorry. If I hurt or offended you by the tone of that series or any other, please accept my apology. I hope to grow in this area, and am trying to do so.)