Waiting

A few weeks ago I went deer hunting for the first time in my entire life. I grew up in the country, in a town that is full of city folk visiting deer leases every fall to try and shoot themselves a trophy buck to mount on their wall. I hated it when I was a kid thanks to the movie Bambi. I also hated it because one year I ran out the front door of my uncle's house to see three deer hung upside down with their insides hanging out. I yelled at everyone that they killed Santa's reindeer! That is … [Read more...]

Love in a Manger

I have a really huge issue with being a mom and step-mom. I don’t know if it’s just because I’m a selfish person or if I’m a selfish person because I grew up an only child with no concept of living with groups of people and resolving conflict with them but I have an extremely hard time living in a house with a big family.I have a lot of cousins who I lived with and around when I was a teenager and I have a lot of great memories with them but in the end I had to go be by myself in my room with … [Read more...]

Preparing for Emmanuel

I find myself having a really difficult Advent this year. Life has been very rough for a long time. Even though there are spurts of sunshine, for the most part I feel lost and confused on what God is calling me to do. I really thought that He wanted me to start The Red Door foundation and then every single door on that project closed. I got over a thousand hits on the post that Mark Shea shared on his blog and not many donations. To me that was a sign that maybe it was not time for that project. … [Read more...]