Broken

My best friend Candie Flores and my husband do not read books. They just don't. So when one of them says "hey, I'm reading this book and it's really good", I listen.Last week Candie texted me about this book called "The Year of Magical Thinking" by Joan Didion and told me that it was really good. It's about grief and how so many people feel the need to shove their grief down for the sake of others' happiness. Also how we as a culture reward people who seem to "move on" and be "strong" which … [Read more...]

A Note From Way Back Here

It was the 4th of July 1994, I was seventeen and 9 months pregnant with my first child. My best friend and her family invited me to the local fireworks show that evening. I managed to somehow get my very pregnant self on the hood of her car (you know your friend loves you when she allows you to get on the hood of her car when you are that big) to watch the fireworks go off.I was just a child myself waiting on my baby to be born. I had no idea what our life together was going to look like. I … [Read more...]

The Tomb of Grief

Last week I wrote about what happened the day that my son Anthony died by committing suicide, it had been five very fast but extremely heavy weeks. Today it’s six weeks and a day after the one year anniversary of my uncle’s death. To sum up how this last year has been let me tell you a story: the neighbor told me yesterday that the cat my dead uncle gave to my now dead kid was found dead months ago by the mailboxes. That is a lot of death in one sentence, if it’s hard to read, just try living in … [Read more...]