Because I Am Still But God’s Child

Guest post by Warren Jewell 
You might call this an old man’s prayer, or my prayer on realizing that my mortality is just around the corner. In effect, on my pilgrimage, I may not make the next crossroad, or fork in the road. This prayer is less a pledge of allegiance than an acknowledgment that I am still but God’s child: at times wrong, at times sanctified, but never less than His. 
My Lord God,

As Thou Art, I am. 
I am here only as Thou Art everywhere.

And, Father, Son and Spirit, as I grow to know Thee more and yet more, I have found in Thy graces that to know Thee is to love Thee. Even so, 
I am but Thy poorest disciple, 
O, Thou, Who lovest me from before Thy first thought of me made Thee smile.

I must act as Thou hast acted, in goodness and love. I must serve as Thou servest, in sacrifice and suffering. And, as Thou, my Savior, died to Thyself at Thy Father’s will, I surrender my life to my Father’s will as all accomplishment for what is left of my earthly time.

I cling to Thee always as Thou Art always mine, and there for me that I am always Thine.

I am Thy nothing as Thou Art my All.

Thou makest of the nothing of me Thy glorious masterpiece, and in that is my eternal joy.

In the Name of Jesus Christ. Amen.

  • Maria

    Warren–this is lovely…I hope that you are on the mend.

  • Allison

    wonderful prayer, Warren. I especially like the "I am Thy nothing as Thou Art my all."

  • Warren Jewell

    I would remind that since God in His divinity is All, we are nothing relative to that. He sees each of us and loves him like His most desirable and beloved child. Our Lord will lift us into His own divine glory in heaven as His ultimate gift to us.Then again, one might say of being nothing that "I am nothing but His love".Of mending, I seem to have acquired a bothersome cold to go with my still limited left arm. Time will take care, however, and I hope by Easter to be up-n-at-'em again. Thanks for asking, and for your kind prayers.

  • Allison

    @Warren: I found an echo of your prayer in Father Stephen's blog tonight: "Perhaps it is for this reason that I find St. Athanasius’ account of salvation in The Incarnation of the Word so compelling. He describes our salvation in terms of being grafted into Christ and given the kind of life that is not ours by nature. By nature we are mere creatures – whose existence is brought out of nothingness. Without the gift of God, we would fall back into our nature and into non-existence and nothingness. But by God’s gracious gift we are sustained in life and invited into His own very life. In this sense, the deepest question of my heart has never been about “how do I get to heaven?” but “how do I not cease to be?” The answer in Christ is a gift far beyond mere existence – a life that is beyond all imagining."

  • Warren Jewell

    I am not claiming originality of the idea, but simply my own expression about it in prayer from contemplation. Indeed, the prayer could be more a lesson from the Spirit than my own writing. He has done that with me before – and it is too exciting to describe.I can only say, as it seems given to me when I ask why my contemplation seems to bring on the Spirit in His grand Person, what The Anchoress writes, in her blog at First Things (ref: dear lady mentions that “a very wise man who loves Christ” offered this discernment about praying for just about anybody – even those who seem in rank enmity to God and His Church. His simple answer was “God’s will will always be for the salvation of the individual involved.” It seems – ummm – that God thinks I need direct attention – NOT very complimentary, eh? ('Spirit, keep a close eye on THAT one or he'll be elsewhere for eternity.')

  • Maria

    Warren–I am so glad you are feeling a bit better and glad to see you on-line.

  • Anonymous

    i had this print when I was a kid, but we don't have it anymore… it's such a wonderful moving picture.