Your world view isn't consistent. You hold contrary views that cannot be reconciled. Don't feel bad, I do too.
Us in the skeptical community often revel in causing dissonance in others psyche. Browsing Reddit/atheism shows countless examples. I'm curious about your conflicts. Mine often keep me up at night, reading about studies, trying to wrap my brain around huge problems that seem so vast that I'll never understand.
Here is the one I've been tackling with recently. I believe that the best, most stable societies are ones where individuals are allowed to make the maximum amount of free choices without negatively effecting others. I also believe that humans don't have free will. Of course, either topic could be a doctoral dissertation on its own (and has often been), but I want to explore how these two ideas conflict with each other.
If the best society requires a freedom of choice, but we are incapable of choosing, then why do free societies work so well? Is it that the illusion of freedom creates a more harmonious group dynamic? Lack of free will doesn't preclude an individuals acquisition of knowledge, and humans seem to be good knowledge acquiring creatures. Does this mean that eventually society will break down when the overall society realizes that we don't have free will? If a free society is the best system, then how do we choose it lacking the ability to choose?
As an individual in a free society, I feel compelled to try and bring free societies to the rest of my species. Will more information about our lack of free will crush that impulse and drive my into nihilism? Or does the emergent property of group intelligence suggest that free societies are the best system, and groups will eventually develop into that framework, if they don't kill themselves off first?
If freedom can increase stability in a population, then why do so many studies show that increased choice causes increased levels of stress and unhappiness in individuals?
Religions are successful as a stabilizing force for a group, because it enforced loyalty to the group. It seems to fail when the group get's too large, and schisms occur, or contact with a different religion, and violence erupts. What is the stabilizing force of free societies, or does one even exist?
That's what's keeping me up at night. What are your favorite conflicts in your worldview?